Suicide || Loona HyeWon Fic

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I've lately developed some feelings for Hyejoo, whenever she talks to me, my heart skips a beat, whenever she hugs me, I always feel butterflies, but sometimes I have that jealousy mood, like whenever one of the members hug her, my heart sinks, especially when guys are trying to "hit her up" I get real mad

Today I came to school and noticed a guy talking to Hyejoo, she looks uncomfortable with him, I overheard their conversation when I was unlocking my locker, "If you're with me, you'd be in my arms all the time." the guy said to Hyejoo,
"I'm not interested." she said with a tiny groan,
"Come on, you'll regret it." he still forces,
"I said I'm not interested!" she said, loudly

"You'll-" she cut him off,
"I DON'T CARE IF I REGRET IT OR NOT, I'M NOT INTERESTED IN MEN!" she shouted, my eyes widened, "She doesn't like men." I smiled,
"So you're..." he stammered,
"Yeah, what about it I'm lesbian? You're just a fucking hetero." she looked at him, "Now get out of my sight, I don't want to see a fuckboy." she added, locking her locker, the guy finally ran away

"Hyejoo, are you okay?" I asked,
"Uh...yeah.." she answered, I hugged her and made her calm, "Thank you." she then kissed my cheek, I felt myself heat up, "I- I didn't mean to d-do that!" she stammered, "J-just got nervous..." she added,
"I-it's okay, let's head to class." I smiled

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After class I've decided to confess to Hyejoo, whether I get rejected or not, I walked up to Hyejoo and felt time stopped, "H-Hyejoo..." I called her slowly,
"Oh, unnie, yes?" she answered my call,
"I have something to tell you..." I said, feeling anxious,
"What is it?" she asked, I felt myself heat up more than usual

"I-I..." I stammered, she tilted her head in confusion, "I...feel like...I...have feelings for you..." I said rather slowly, getting red cheeks due to nervousness and emotion,
"Oh...uh..." she scratched the back of her neck, "I like you too but...I think we should just stay as friends..." she said her final words, leaving my heart aching, breaking and falling apart

"I-It's okay...at least we can still be friends..." I sniffed, trying not to get my tears falling out from my eyes, "I have to go the washroom...I'll be back..." I said, wiping my eyes and nose and turning myself so that my back is facing her and finally walking as fast as I could to the washroom to cry all out

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(Hyejoo's P.O.V)

I watched Chaewon unnie ran to the washroom, I felt my eyes watery and my arms in pain, I felt weak, hurt and broken, if I were to be with Chaewon unnie, I have to try to fix my broken self, but I kept getting myself into the wrong place, seeing her run away from me made my heart ached

My arms felt weak, I checked my wrists to see it bleeding again, I've cut myself this morning and didn't tell anyone, Nancy has been bothering me for more than a minute and it's making me feel like I'm nothing, I'm nothing but just a girl trying to figure out the meaning of life

Please...

Get me out of here...