Coincidence?

12

I have to let go. I have to learn how to survive without the only most important person in the world left for me. I have to learn to be independent. Even though it is so hard to say goodbye, I can't keep running behind him. I have to find my own path.

Jungkook has been my walking stick all this time. Now that he is going to leave, everything feels unreal. He is going to leave. I won't be seeing him everyday. It would be a huge change in my life, and changes are never positive. I'm afraid that I won't be able to survive without him, he's the one, the only one I want by my side all the time. But life won't go as I want it, would it?

I can't help but keep thinking about this, it has been a week now since I was at his house when he told me this. He once told me that going to Seoul was his dream, to work at the head office. His dream. He wanted to give that up for me, just to stay.

My thoughts are interrupted by a pen flicked on my head from my back. I turn around to find Jimin looking down at me with a frown on his face.

"Sunhee-ssi, why aren't you working like you are supposed to? You know the deadline for this project is tomorrow."

I immediately stand up and hang my head low. "I'm sorry, sunbaenim-ssi. I'll get working right away." I try to look away but he takes my face in his hands and forces me to look at him.

"Something is clearly wrong here, are you ok? After coming back from your recovery, you haven't really been yourself." I stay silent and look down.

"Anyway, please make sure you continue work on this project. I have a job for you for next week. You are going to go to the event in Busan to check up, take notes, and present the project to the people that are gonna be there along with some other colleagues, so make sure you are ready to present with a big smile on your face ok?"

I continue looking down and slowly nod my head. "Ok," I said sheepishly. I'm gonna need to get a drink tonight. He walks away immediately. I slowly look around me, all eyes were at me. Everybody went quiet and then immediately started talking to each other as if they saw or heard nothing. I sighed. I sit back down in front of my conputer and start typing up my speech for the presentation. To my disappointment, I can't find any inspiration to write. I let out a loud groan and put my fingers on my temple.

"Are you really okay? He's right, you really don't seem like yourself these days." Tae walks up to me from behind handing me a cup.

"No, I'm good, good, yeah." I took a sniff at the drink topped with whipped cream and sprinkles. "Mmmm, snickerdoodle. How'd you know?" I question him, smiling gently.

"Jungkook told me once that it's your favorite. Plus I thought you could use a distraction." My smile falls and my eyes travel to my feet.

"Did I do something wrong? I'm sorry, I—"

"No, no it's ok, it's just, nevermind." I interrupt him. Whenever I hear Jungkook's name, it immediately takes me to the 'he's leaving' part. I just hope he didn't have to leave, then we'd be back to how we originally were— no fighting, no ignoring. Just us two together.

"Why does life have to be so unfair and tough?" I ask out of context, bringing my fist against me cheek, my elbow resting on the table.

"Ohh, I see where this is coming from." The chuckles and sits next to me on the empty chair. "Well, that life is unfair all time. The happiness in life is what you make out of an unfair situation." He replies. To be honest, his words really do make sense. I have to make something good out of this situation. If he needs to go, I have to let him go.

"You are right. Bring the good out of the bad. I have to be strong." I reply, him grinning widely at me.

"There you go!" He exclaims. "But if you wanna say one last goodbye, you gotta go tell him. His flight is tomorrow."

"Tom-TOMORROW? Uhh, I don't like doing this, but can you please take over for me? I am very sorry, but this is too important for me, more than work."

He chuckles. "Haha, yea sure, go get him." He replies, the grin still on his face. I smile back at him and walk-sprint out of the door, making sure my breath stays stable, unlike the last time. Before exiting the door, I take one last look at Tae at my work table typing stuff on the computer. I smile at him, what is this feeling?

Jungkook POV:

OK I CANNOT CONTROL MYSELF! My flight leaves tomorrow morning, and I haven't talked to Sunhee IN A WEEK! And no, I AM NOT OK! Right, calm down. If she wants to see you, she will come to see you...but she doesn't know I'm leaving tomorrow AHH! Should I text her? No, what if she's still mad? GIVE ME A SIGN WOMAN! Ok I need to calm down. Calm down.

I think packing would be the best option right now. I need to calm the fuck down. Suddenly I hear heavy footsteps approaching my room, and there's only one person I can think of who would make that noise. Suddenly my room door bursts open with a loud thud.

"Kkabjagiya!" I shout. But as soon as I open my eyes, I see teary eyes in front of me.

"Sunhee-ah," I start to say but she immediately runs and puts her arms around me, hugging me tight.

After about ten minutes of her sobbing into the crook of my neck, she finally looks up at me, her eyes puffed and red.

"Why didn't you tell me that you were leaving tomorrow?" Her voice was surprisingly calm and quiet.

"I was afraid you were still pissed at me for leaving. I couldn't bring myself to talk to you." It is partially true. The main reason I avoided her is because I couldn't make myself meet her. I missed her, but if I made myself see her, I'd immediately regret it. Working in Seoul is my dream, and I have been longing for it for a long time.

"That's it? You pabo! It's your dream. You've been wanting this right? Don't worry about me, just go follow your desire." She says. She is really ok with it?

"Right. No, yeah you are right." I stammer. "I should go for it, and I am." I answer her.

"Yeah, you...should." She says. "I should leave now, you have a flight tomorrow, and a big future in front of you. I don't want to be a bother." She answers with an obvious fake smile. She doesn't want me to go.

"Don't fake it, I know you don't want me to leave." I whisper soft enough so she can't hear me.

"What ?" She asks

"Nothing." I smile at her at which she smiles back. "Hey, um, do you want to have one last sleepover before I leave?" I suggest. I am really hopeful she says yes.

"Are you sure? You have a big day ahead of you tomorrow." She sounds doubtful. It's like, she wants to stay, but can't. I nod my head at her. She smiles widely and says 'ok'.

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Hey guys, so I was hoping to write more than this for this chapter, but I lost the motivation to actually write more. My writing was getting less and less interesting. I apologize once again for this story not being interesting. Thanks for understanding.

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