AKA

2.

*Italics=thoughts*

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The party was still going on. Everyone was past high and some were tipsy. I hadn't had a drink because it would interfere with my medication..if I needed it. I was starting to think that I did, the feeling I have right now is confusing and I don't know what to do about it.

Looking around the room I noticed that Mars hadn't come back yet. Lifting the screen of my phone I checked the time. 2:37 am. Getting up from my seat, I walked around the party asking any one I saw the same question, "Have you seen Mars?" or "Where's Mars?" Everyone either shrugged their shoulders, disregarded the question or just plain said "No".

I was becoming irritable at the lack of regards so I decided to look outside. It was the last place I had seen him go and for some reason I needed to see him, talk to him..something.

I felt the cold night air basically slap me in the face as I stepped out of the doorway. Letting it slip from my hands, I heard the door slam slightly making me jump. I scoped out my surroundings in order to decide which way to go. Left it is. Quickly walking on the dirt path, I kept an eye out for Mars. If he wasn't out here, he had probably gone home but he would never leave without telling us..so I highly doubt it.

The only light I had was from the moon and I was too occupied in my own thoughts to even think that I should use my phone's flashlight, and I'm glad I didn't. In the corner of my eye I could see his car, "So he's still here.."

Letting out a deep breath I took a few steps toward the car but was stopped in my tracks when I noticed that it was moving. Not a lot, but enough. I strained my eyes in the dark and I could see a blonde haired girl holding on to the seat in front of her. I saw a familiar hand running itself through a head of disheveled brown hair. It didn't take much for me to connect the dots. They were having sex in the backseat of his car. I let out a scoff and turned on my heels walking hurriedly back to where I came from. I wasn't expecting that but I guess I shouldn't be surprised.

I made it back inside and spotted Vee, she was talking to Adonis. As I got closer I could tell that I shouldn't interrupt so I looked around for somewhere else to go. My eyes landed on Skinny, she was leaning on the wall with a red cup in her hand and a cigarette in between her index and middle finger. "Skins!" I said putting up a peace sign as I walked towards her.

"Lu, Where'd you go?"

"Oh, I was...looking for Mars.."

Her face dropped a bit then she smiled slightly again. "So did you find him?" She took a sip of her drink.

"Yup, I sure did and someone was getting lucky." I said with a fake gag. I didn't care, and I wasn't upset. Who are you trying to convince?

"Are you okay?" She asked staring down at me.

"Why wouldn't I be?"

I shifted from one foot to the other. She never answered but I knew why she asked to begin with, but I wanted her to say it. Her eyes were fixed right over my head. Thinking she was staring into space, I stared right at her. Her cheeks were a shade of red, her eyes low and her lips slightly parted. Shes very pretty.

I was snapped out of my thoughts by the sound of her voice, "Bingo." She said winking at whatever she saw. I turned around and saw him looking straight at us. Quickly adjusting myself I turned and stood next to her. He doesn't know what I saw, act natural. I let out a deep breath and stuffed my hands deep into the pockets of my jacket.

"Where you been? Everyone was looking for you." Skinny said flicking her eyes towards me. By everyone she means me.

Running his fingers through his hair, his eyes landed on mine. Just answer the question. "I took a walk.."

Is he serious? I let out a laugh with no humor behind it, "Yeah." I said taking a few steps backwards, "Uh, I gotta...use the restroom.."

Skinny stared at me intently and let out a sigh, "I'll be here."

I walked away with a blank face. I had no emotion for this situation, honestly why should I care? Would I have told him that I was fucking some guy in my car? Probably not. I wouldn't have done it. Suddenly I felt a cold substance on my cheek. "Fuck my bad Lu! I swear I didn't mean to!" A drink had been knocked into the side of my face and was running down my shirt.

Anger rised inside of me, calm down. "Fucking Bullshit." I said through gritted teeth. Okay maybe I was a little upset. I stomped through the crowd and walked outside for some fresh air.

I wiped myself off with my jacket and dug into my bag. Pulling out the little orange bottle, my hands shook as I tried to remove the cap. Seriously calm the fuck down, it's not that serious just breathe.

"This isn't the bathroom..." I took deep breaths with my head back as I attempted to ignore the voice in hopes it would go away. Sadly it spoke again.

"They told me you were looking for me.." Anger washed over me.

"Are you okay?" He interrupted the silence again.

Just stop talking! My back still turned to him, I gripped the cap of the bottle twisting slightly, I felt so weak, "Fuck this." I said through gritted teeth.

His large hands took the bottle from my own and opened it easily, taking out 2 pills and sitting them in my hand. Staring into the darkness I swallowed them quickly, "Thanks." I said snatching the bottle. I wasn't trying to be so passive aggressive but I couldn't help it.

"You were looking for me. What did you need?" He asked once again.

"Nothing.." I stared past his large figure that had now positioned itself in front of me. 

"I'm here now, tell me what you need..do you wanna leave?" His hand reached for my cheek and I flinched.

"I don't need you now.." There was a long pause before I spoke again. Finger combing through my hair, I finally looked at him, "You didn't have to lie, I don't care what you do." He seemed shocked but his expression quickly changed to guilt.

I took a few steps toward the door before he spoke in his defense, "It didn't mean anything...you know that Luci."

My back was to him and I could tell he didn't turn around either. "I..I don't care." I said lowly. Right before the door closed behind me I heard a deep "Shit." that came out almost like a growl.

He was right, I do want to leave. I looked around the room as I felt my anxiety setting in.

"Where the fuck is Vee..." I said almost inaudible, and somehow both she and Skinny appeared before my eyes. Not far behind I could see Shank and Adonis pushing each other in a friendly manner.

"Where's Mars?" Adonis asked between laughs. I made a gesture towards the door and they both walked out with no other questions.

"You wanna go?" Skinny asked putting her hands on my shoulders. I nodded my head and she pulled me farther into her as we walked out.

"Mars?" Vee asked quitely in my ear and this time I didn't have the energy to lie.

"Yeah."

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Interesting, I feel like Luci cares a lot more that she lets on. But why? That's the real question!

-SUSU