AKA

5.

We had arrived back to my house and I decided to get a few rooms together. I wasn't cleaning, just putting away things that were important in case shit got too wild.

Putting a few things in my closet I took my boots off while I was in there. I reached behind my dresser and retrieved a small pouch, opening it up I saw a few pills and powders. Stuffing it into my hoodie pocket I flicked the light off and closed the door to the closet behind me.

Going into the bathroom I looked at myself closely. My undereyes were dark, my eyes were watery and my hair was a bit of a mess. Throwing my hair into a bun on the back of my head, I splashed cold water on my face in an attempt to look more lively. It didn't help much at all.

Reaching the living room, I saw Vee sitting on the floor around my coffee table rolling up a few blunts. Flopping onto the couch, I throw the pouch onto the table. She looks up slightly confused and grabs it unzipping it quickly. She looks inside with a surprised look on her face and just then my door is swinging open.

I had given everyone a key to my house considering they're here for the better part of every day. I can't blame them though. I encourage them to stay as much as they like, due to my hate for being alone.

"What is up!" Shank yells while basically jumping onto the couch next to me.

"When did you get this shit?" Adonis asked Vee as he examined the contents of the pouch that were now spread across the table.

"Don't ask me, ask her!" Vee said pointing in my direction.

"I have my ways.." I  threw my hands up to dismiss the questions that were about to be thrown at me. I didn't feel like explaining how i've accumulated so many different things to everyone right now.

Averting my eyes to Mars I could see a smile on his lips. He seemed to be in a better mood, that's good. There's no telling how long he would be in this particular mood, so I must savor it.

"So...what? Are we gonna talk all day?" Skinny chimed in while walking from the kitchen with a bag of chips in hand.

"Let's just loosen up." Vee stated while running her hand over the many blunts she had previously rolled. Getting up from my comfortable position, I walked over to speaker near the couch that Mars was sitting on and asked if anyone would like to connect. Shank tossed his phone in my direction and I caught it, quickly plugging it in and pressing play.

By this time, Skinny had taken my seat. "Oh no I wasn't sitting there!" I said sarcastically as I stood in front of the room.

"You can still sit here..." Skinny said as she winked seductively.

As tempting as the offer was, I lowered myself onto the cushion next to Mars. Looking at him I could see that he was already slightly inebriated which can be determined as the source of his happiness.

We were now on blunt number 4 and I was ready to kick things up a notch. Let's do some happy pills. Maybe someone will get laid...by someone I mean Vee and Adonis. Hopefully this time I don't find myself lusting after Skinny.

"I have 8, enough for everyone." I said flicking the bag of small multicolored pills. Without any questions everyone stuck their hand out waiting for me to distribute them.

"Is that a butterfly?" Adonis said looking closely at the pill...

"Ecstasy." Mars said as he swallowed his pill quickly.

"Oh shit.." Shank said while smiling extremely wide. I didn't really think about the effects of taking this but soon enough I realized that it wasn't one of my best moves.

I was so happy, anxious, I needed to move. Hopping out of my seat I turned the music up more and paced to the kitchen. I opened every cabinet searching for God knows what.

"What are you looking for?"

Turning around I was met by the same person I had been sitting with for hours before. "You!" I blurted our very confidently but also without a thought. Oh shit, it's working. I covered my mouth and turned around staring at the counter, slowly putting my hood on.

"You found me."

I could feel his presence coming closer. Squeezing my eyes shut, I tried to ignore the drug induced thoughts from escaping my mouth. I kinda want to kiss you. Should we dance? Are you real? If I turn around how close will you be? But somehow I settled on, "Do you feel it?" Turning around I looked straight into his eyes.

"I feel it." he replied back after a small pause.

The same look from last night washed over his face. Dark eyes, clenched teeth and his eyebrows tightly furrowed. His breathing intensifies as he stares at me closely. For some reason I can't seem to control my actions, or maybe I just don't care but before I know it my hand is on his cheek caressing it softly. Watching as his body stiffens, I begin to remove it but I am stopped and his own hand is over mine. He positioned it over his chest and I can feel his heart beating rapidly. With this I can feel my own speeding up and I'm only sinking deeper into the effects of the small pill. Laying my head on his chest I listened intently to his heart beat which seemed to pound harder than it normally should. Putting his arms around me, I felt him relax into my body, his chin resting on my head.

It felt like ages before we were knocked out of our position by a loud voice. "Where'd you guys go!" Shank yelled from the living room.

Stepping away from eachother I walked around him exiting the kitchen with him leaning against the counter. Every step seemed harder to take than the last. Finally making it on the couch, I looked around the room and spotted Mars walking out slowly.

"So what's next!" I said while taking off my large hoodie. I was left in a black tube top and my small jean shorts.

"What about this?" Skinny said while opening a container with white powder in it. All my inhibitions had gone out the window so I was the first one on my knees ready to do a line...and maybe other things.

Taking the rolled up dollar, I quickly snorted the line and dropped back onto the couch. Taking my hair out of the bun, I shook it slightly allowing it to frame my face. I felt like I was floating, mixed with so many emotions.

The sun had gone down and it was now dark in the house, everything fun happens at night. Checking the clock I saw the time 9:13, late enough for night feelings but earlier enough to have time to act on them.

Everyone was up, dancing. Except for Mars and I. I know he's not a dancer so I didn't ask him to. Laying my head in his lap, I looked up at him, "Should I move?" I asked loud enough for him to hear. He shook his head and began to play with my hair.

"I have a lot of energy." I said again, now having diarrhea of the mouth. I couldn't stop saying the things that were coming into my head.

"Get rid of it." He said inching a bit closer to my ear. Getting up abruptly, I sat on my knees while leaning into his face.

"How?" I said into his ear.

I can admit that now I was having feelings that couldn't be explained, but it felt more like lust than anything else. His eyes darkened significantly and a smirk came across his lips. I smiled back and raised my eyebrows at him. In a swift movement he grabbed my hand and was leading me to my bedroom. This wasn't a good decision but it's all I wanted right now, no matter how much it would complicate things. I needed this.

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and I- oop

-SUSU