Lovely » Zedward [Discontinued]

Chapter 42

Edward sighed deeply, watching as the pebble clicked against the water for at least three times. His familiar presence engulfed him, along with his sweet, musky scent, a certain type of longing of his touch creeped at the corner of Edward's beating heart.

"I know you're there, Zayn.. just come here and sit down with me.." Edward said softly, head not turning to look at the Bradford native, who was standing behind him, a few meters away. Zayn just smiled at the curly headed lad, small crinkles appearing by his eyes.

"You're very aware of my presence, aren't you, darling?" Zayn teased him, sitting beside Edward, eyes on his dazed boyfriend. When Edward didn't respond, Zayn could immediately tell that something was bothering him. Curiosity irked him, but he knew better than to get it out of him.

"Love, I can tell that somethings bothering you. What's wrong?" Edward sighed quietly, playing with the sleeve of his leather jacket. Golden eyes bore into the side of his head, but Edward still ignored Zayn with no doubt, making the boy's worried state worse than before.

"Lovely, you know you can tell me anything, right?" Guilt was eating Edward away, though he couldn't even say a word. If he told Zayn, he would be furious, and he didn't want that happening. He's seen him in that situation, and Edward didn't want trigger Zayn's anger by telling him that he felt unsafe because he feels like he was being watched twenty four-seven.

"Baby, please? If you're afraid that I'll be upset, I won't. Well, I'll at least try to. It depends if what you're going to tell me is upsetting, but Ed, you can tell me, love." Zayn's words made Edward's body stiffen.

The green eyed brunette was surely not going to tell him now. There was this fear holding him back from telling Zayn the truth. Edward didn't want to lose the only person he's ever had. Not when he's in too deep already. Not when his heart always yearns for Zayn.

He could never bear the heartbreak he would go through if Zayn were to ever leave him. Edward felt like a child at the moment, since he now acknowledged the fact that he depended on Zayn in a lot of times, and he didn't want his actions to drive him away.

Secrets that he's been hiding will eventually be revealed, Edward knew that himself. But he just couldn't find it in his heart to tell his concerned partner, seated right next to him.

"It's nothing.." Zayn huffed, causing Edward's blood run cold.

Edward knows that look on his face. That sound he made, seemingly annoyed, frustrated, and irritated, with sourness covering his facial expression. It made his heart ache, just a little.

Zayn wanted to be honest with himself..

The way Edward kept things from him, was very tiring. Zayn didn't know whether it was a good or bad thing at first, but now he realized that if they were going to be in a relationship, they should be honest with one another.

Honesty.

That's what they both lacked.

Well, it was more apparent on Edward's side.

"Edward.."

Edward visibly flinched at the mention of his name. Zayn often called him pet names, and hearing him say his name with a cold tone in his voice, made his breathing stop for a second.

Edward was fucked. Just by the way Zayn's mood had changed from worried to stern, made Edward's inside churn.

"W - what? I -" Edward stuttered, voice barely above a whisper.

"Why do you keep avoiding this? Whenever it's obvious that you're hiding something, or when clearly somethings bothering you, you keep on changing the subject, telling me it's nothing. It's something. Because from the way you're trying to cover it up with excuses makes it clear that you don't fucking trust me." By now, Edward didn't meet Zayn's eyes, fearing that Zayn would see his eyes glassy, filled with tears.

" I - I d - don't w - want t - to - "

"You don't want to what? Edward, I'm sick and tired of you lying to me! Do you trust me? If so, why is it so hard to tell me the truth? If it's hard to tell me, why can't you tell me why it is? Or when you will? It's exhausting to have questions running in your head almost everyday! I thought when you told me everything, there'd be no secrets. And that you wouldn't be afraid to tell me what's wrong.." Zayn breathed in sharply, muscles tensed underneath his sweater, clattered body.

Edward summed up every power he had to contain his salty, tears, as his fingers started shaking, heart beating erratically against his chest. His mouth became dry, anxiousness swallowing him whole. Gulping down the hard, forming lump in his throat, he parts his lips to say something, but after a few seconds pass, nothing ever came.

Zayn laughed dryly at him, shaking his head. Edward bit his bottom lip so hard, blood would've drawn out of it as he did so. They sat there, tensed, silence filling the air. Licking his chapped lips, Edward finally managed to speak, words that made Zayn's heart swell, voice cracking in the end.

"I - I'm s - so sorry." And before Zayn knew it, Edward was already standing up to his feet, legs turning to sprint. Regret was what he felt.

Edward didn't deserve that, he thought sadly.

He was an asshole for saying that to him. Sweet Edward, who Zayn knew, was having a hard time, living his life, with no parents, and only him being there for care and support.

Zayn groaned, tugging roughly at his styled hair.

Stupid..

Edward was now nowhere to be seen, and Zayn was left alone with the dark sky. The first droplet of water his him, but he didn't seem to care. After that single droplet hit Zayn's skin, more followed quickly, and he finds himself drenched in the cold rain, clothes sticking onto him.

So fucking stupid..

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