Aria
I am so embarrassed. why the FUCK did I do that
ugh I hate myself
truth is im gay and I really like Lavender and I find her absolutely beautiful
from the moment I saw her in my seat, I fell in love and I know it sounds crazy but I really want to be with her one day
I know I know I act as I hate her but it's only because I don't know how to show someone I like them
this happens to me every time I see someone cute and I end up liking them
yeah it never works out
maybe I should be nicer to Lavender
na, plus I think she likes my attitude I don't know though
I was kind of hurt when she kicked me out because I actually felt a connection plus she was the one that pulled my head in
but then again she did say she didn't want it to be awkward
I'm conflicted but I just have hopes that one day I will be able to show I like her and she'll reciprocate those feelings
I get home and sadly walk in
"Hey Ari, oh no you're sad," my mom says when I walk in
my mom is super supportive of me being gay, in fact, she was married to a girl when they adopted me
however, they got a divorce and my mom is now married to a guy
I know confusing but that's just how my life is
it's complicated and there's a lot of drama with my mom, my mother (what I call my other one), and my step dad
"yeah cause I am"
"do you want to talk about it"
I nod and walk over giving her a hug
"I kissed a girl today"
"oh really"
"yeah but she yelled at me right after"
"oh no"
we sit down at the table and I explain everything
I tell her how I liked her as soon as I saw her, and how I've been mean to her, and lastly how we got put in a group and that's when I kissed her
I see my mom look disappointed when I tell her I was mean to her and I already know I'm going to be lectured
"Aria you can't be mean to her just because you like her"
"I know that mom"
"then why are you mean"
"I don't know but I can't help it"
"you need to apologize"
"but why"
"aria!"
"fine!"
