Beautiful Disaster

Ninety

    Kayleigh POV

Something was growing within me, and it had nothing to do with the child I carried.
Although if I had to be honest even he was so still. Like he knew something was happening. How much I was teetering so close to the edge.

This anger I felt brewing was unlike anything I had ever felt before. It wasn't white hot, making my blood sing as it had done when I fought with Bell. This was different, colder. Even the pain radiating from my leg couldn't penetrate through the wall of ice I had built around it. It was there, I knew it was, but I couldn't feel it like I did earlier.

Couldn't feel much of anything.

I thought I could trust Abby, but now.. Now I wondered if this wasn't apart of a bigger plan.

Flashback

"Kayleigh...Kayleigh!"

Blinking my eyes a few times I see Abby hovering above me.

"Where'd you go just now?"

Go?

I didn't go anywhere.
Broken wrist, damaged hip and leg, to name a few.
It was physcially impossible for me to even sit up without help.

Abby's been doing this everyday since I woke up. Talking that is. Asking if I wanted to see anyone, how was my pain? Did I need anything? Want anything? The one thing I wanted she nor anyone else wasn't willing to give.

I wanted to die, I wanted it to end.

"You've been staring at the same spot on the wall for a while now-

"Why did you save me?"

My question catches her off guard and I watch her visabily flinch back. Or maybe it was the sound of my voice. Harsh and raspy from all the screaming I had done before going silent.

I wasn't stupid. I knew how much of a threat she thought I was before. Her and Clarke were alot alike in their thinking.
Unstable was a word they used. Dangerous.
I had the ear to the commander of a powerful army. It was no secret, this woman in front if me thought it would be safer for everyone, if I remained locked away. And then the mountain took me again..

It was all over, more than one threat had been ended.
The grounders were freed, Skaikru wouldn't be hunted down for their marrow with the fall of the mountain and those inside.

I died.. Another threat to Skaikru eliminated. And she brought me back.

"You fear me.. Why save something you fear?"

From what I was told only Octavia was there at first, by the time Bell came, my heart had already stopped beating. Abby could've said it was too late, could've done nothing. Instead she pumped my heart until Bellamy could.

Why?

There's saddness in her eyes as she looks at me, and for the first time she's quiet. She seems to be weighing her options on what to say. I turn my gaze away when she doesn't answer. Try to tell myself her words wouldn't matter, but they did..