The Spoken Secrets

Chapter 6

Y/n's POV

I returned home the next day.

My chest feeling slightly suffocated by the fact I didn't know when I'd see Luciel again. Even though I had the messenger with the ability to speak to Luciel at any given moment; I still couldn't shake the unhappy feeling from within me.

What's wrong with me?

Why can I just be grateful that I had the opportunity to see Luciel? Or be grateful with the thought that he's doing well. Why am I so stuck... on this? As I continue to ponder about my behaviour the door to my room quietly opens.

As the door opened light shines its way into my dark, closed off bedroom. Sudden a shadow appears in the door way bringing me back to reality. "Y/n...." V called my name softly with a sorrowful expression upon his face as he stared at me. Upon entering, V quietly closes the door behind him making his way towards my bed, seating himself next to me.

"You haven't eaten anything all day nor have you left your room.... Im worried about you." I turn on my side looking away from V "I'm fine don't worry about me..." I replied in a monotone. Even though I could use some condolence a large part of me wanted to push everyone away and be alone.

V let out a sigh reaching out to me placing a hand on my head stroking his thumb back and forth. It reminded me of something that our mother used to do to us when we were sad and frustrated. Unfortunately this left me feeling slightly worse then before.

"V..."

"Yes?"

"...." I close my eyes for a moment in thought then reopen them. "Today is one of those days again..." I stated as I let out a long sigh "I feel complicated by so many things. So many questions...." it was silent for a long while before V spoke.

"I'm sorry that I can't help you answer your questions Y/n..... perhaps the best thing you can do is to try and look for a way to carry on. That is the path to your happiness.... your not alone. You have Luciel, Rika, all the RFA members and myself to help you on your journey."

I let V's words sink in for a moment. He was right.... the questions I'm looking for probably will never be answered, but is it really best to move on when my mind tends to wind itself back here every once and awhile? "Ok..." I nodded deciding to sit up.

"I'll try.... promise you'll always be there for me?"

"I will do my best."

                  -A few months later -

"Rika, I've checked through the list of guests and it appears everyone is here" I explained as I clapped my hands together happily. Rika smiles happily and takes the clip board that I offered out to her scanning through the sheets.

"Fantastic! Thank you Y/n!" She replied in a cheery tone tucking a strand of her blonde wavy hair behind her ear. "Then I should prepare to get everyone's attention for RFA's speech. Will you find V and warn him that we'll start his auction shortly afterwards?" Rika asked flipping through some more paperwork "of course. Good luck!" "Thank you. I'll see you soon."

I watch as Rika quickly walks off. I let out a sigh of relief "looks like everything is going to plan." I didn't think we could pull off as many guest as Rika wanted, but now I regret ever doubting her. She really had her way with convincing people to come to our party.

The room was packed with several people making it hard for me to pin point where V would exactly be. Weaving in and out of people with apologies as I pass by. Not long after searching I find Jumin standing near the different types of wines. I quickly make my way over knowing that V would soon have to arrive if Jumin was around.