I love you, Goodbye

E I G H T E E N

Once I finished packing their bags, I started to get them ready, Noah started helping. "So are you sure you're going to be fine without them for a couple months?" Noah asked. "I think I'll be able to manage" I smiled. "I mean, you told me you cried at the airport when Zach's mom was taking the girls" Noah looked at me. "Oh shut up and tie her shoe" I rolled my eyes. He laughed. "Alright, you're all set" I smiled.

"Let's go bring them to the car" I looked at Noah. "I'll grab Ella's bag and Ella, you grab Emily and Emily's bag" Noah said as he grabbed Ella's bag. "Alright" I nodded. I picked up Emily and her bag and headed down the stairs. "I'll be back in a second" I smiled at everyone. I walked towards Noah's car with him following behind me. I opened the back seat and set Emily down.

"Alright you're gonna be gone for a few months with Uncle Noah, but I promise, when you get back we will go on that shopping spree okay?" I smiled strapping Emily in. "Okay mommy, I'm gonna miss you, I love you" Emily smiled hugging me. "I'll miss you too baby" ugh the tears. Come on girls don't cry. I gave them both kisses on their foreheads and shut the car door.

"I'll see you soon little sis" Noah sighed. "You're just trying to make me cry now" I sighed hugging him. I saw him getting ready to cry too. "Stop it" I groaned looking away from him. "I can't help it when you cry I cry so technically this is your fault" Noah poked me. I laughed through the tears. "I'm gonna miss you Noah" I nodded. "I'm gonna miss you too Ellie" Noah gave me one last hug before going to get in the car.

I watched the car as it pulled off. I can last a few months without the girls right? Let's pray. I waited until the car was out of sight, then I wiped away all of my tears, took a deep breath and walked back into the house. "YOU DIDN'T TELL ME YOUR BROTHER WAS NOAH FUCKING CENTINEO!" Zach screamed. "HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME" Daniel screamed. "UGH" Jonah screamed. "YEAH" Corbyn screamed. "I'M YELLING BECAUSE THEY'RE YELLING AND I FEEL LEFT OUT!" Jack screamed.

"Hmph" Gabbie pouted. "I'm sorry?" I laughed. "Oh guys she's been crying" Gabbie sighed hugging me. "Stop before you make me cry more" I pouted. "It's gonna be alright. The girls are in safe hands" Jonah smiled. "I know, but they're not in my hands" I pouted. Everyone laughed. "Well let's watch a movie and get your mind off of things" Jonah suggested. "I'm only cuddling with Jonah because you're all buttheads" I laughed and pouted clinging onto Jonah.

"Fine by me, also you, Gabbie, Jack and I are all going to the mall tomorrow, just a heads up" Jonah shrugged throwing his arm around me and we all walked upstairs to my room. I immediately pulled Jonah over to my bed and he laid down with me. "You're like 10 feet taller then me so this is great" I sound really muffled because my face is on his sweatshirt. "You wanna say that again?" Jonah laughed. I moved my head. "I said, you're like 10 feet taller than me so this is great" I repeated. Everyone laughed.

They picked a scary movie and Jonah and I looked at each other and my first reaction was to laugh. "It's okay jojo I'll protect you" I laughed patting his cheek. "Oh shut it" Jonah rolled his eyes. The movie was Annabelle Creation. "Oh hell no what the fuck who do you think I am?" Jonah tried to get up and leave. I yanked him back down "if I'm staying, you're staying" I laughed. Jonah glared at me and I smiled innocently at him. "Fine, but only for you" Jonah rolled his eyes.

"Yay" I smiled.

Something scary happened and I could hear Jonah's breathing become quicker and I swear I could hear his heart beating really fast. I grabbed his hand, at first he jumped but then he looked down at me. "It's okay, I'm right here and the guys and Gabbie are all around us too" I looked up at him. Jonah smiled and nodded. We continued watching the movie and Jonah didn't let go of my hand for the rest of the movie, he squeezed it every time he got scared.

I feel like a mom right now, wait I am a mom. Damn. By the end of the movie, Jonah was sound asleep, so was Gabbie and Jack, and Daniel. I looked at Zach and Corbyn who were the only other ones awake. Jonah fell asleep squeezing my hand. I feel really bad, I shouldn't have made him watch the movie. Corbyn and Zach looked up at me and noticed Jonah squeezing my hand. "I feel bad" I sighed. "Yeah we should have told you he doesn't handle scary movies well" Corbyn chuckled.

"Hey man, I wasn't the one who picked the movie" I looked up at Jonah. Soon after, we all fell asleep.

3am

I felt Jonah shaking and he was whispering something. I opened my eyes and saw Jonah sweating really bad. "No, stop no" Jonah was whispering. "Jonah?" I questioned. Jonah screamed and sat up freaking out and panicking, looking around the room frantically. "JONAH JONAH!!" I yelled. I cupped his face in my hands. "Look at me, it's okay it's okay" I shook my head looking at Jonah. He hugged me tightly and I hugged him back, obviously worried. Someone turned on the lights.

"It's okay Jonah I'm right here" I kept repeating. Jonah was now crying in my arms. "NO" Jonah screamed. I kept rubbing his back and rocking him back and forth. What the fuck happened while he was asleep? "What happened????" Daniel asked. Jonah didn't reply, he just kept crying.