I love you, Goodbye

N I N E T E E N

I finally got Jonah to calm down. He looked around the room and saw all the worried looks on everyone's face. "Okay, are you able to tell us what happened?" I asked. Jonah looked at me for a second then nodded. "It all happened so fast, but one by one I had to watch all of you guys die in the most brutal ways possible, then my family, then the limelights and anyone I've ever had contact with, the closer the person is to my heart, the more brutal the death was. And at the end, I was left alone, until the thing that killed all of you, buried me alive..." Jonah paused.

"But I had already woken up by the time it got to my mom but it was like I was still in the dream even when you were trying to calm me down and I could still see people dying, and when I was buried alive I felt like I couldn't breathe" more tears fell from Jonah's eyes. I didn't know what to say, and by the looks on everyone's face, I could tell they didn't know what to say either. "I'm sorry I woke you guys up, you can all go back to sleep, I'm gonna go downstairs and, well I don't know to be honest" Jonah shook his head and rubbed his eyes.

He stood up and left the room. "Guys, I feel like a terrible friend, if I wouldn't have made him watch the movie he wouldn't have had that dream" I rubbed my forehead. "It's not your fault, you didn't know how he was going to react and none of us knew that he was going to have a nightmare about it" Gabbie shook her head. "You guys go ahead and sleep, I'm gonna make sure he's alright" I nodded. I opened the door and shut the light off on my way out, and closed the door behind me.

I walked downstairs and saw Jonah sitting on the couch biting his nails. "Jonah?" I questioned. He turned around and looked at me. I walked over to him and sat down next to him. "I was just checking if you're okay and I wanted to apologize" I sighed. "Apologize for what?" Jonah asked looking at me. "You would have never had that dream if I wouldn't have made you watch that movie so I'm sorry" I shook my head.

"Don't blame yourself, you didn't know" Jonah shook his head. "Well I'm sorry either way" I looked at him. "It's fine, thank you for caring" Jonah smiled and hugged me. "Alright, let's watch spongebob" I smiled. Jonah agreed. I stayed up for a while to make sure Jonah slept okay.

Jonah

I woke up and saw Ellie laying on my chest. I love how caring she is. I could tell she stayed up all night and made sure I was okay. Before you get any ideas, I don't like her like that, I can promise you that I only think of her as a sister. No I'm not like Zach where I hide my feelings because I don't know if she feels the same, she's actually just like a little sister to me. Jack feels the same, Corbyn and Daniel haven't hung out with her as much but like, they're still close.

Just not close enough to say she's their sister. Ellie woke up and looked up at me. "No nightmare?" She asked. "No nightmare" I smiled. "Mission accomplished" she nodded. I laughed. "So what time are we going to the mall?" Ellie asked. "What time is it now?" I asked. She checked her phone. "It's 1" she answered. "So 2" I replied. And with that, Ellie was up and getting ready.

Ellie

I walked into my room and saw Gabbie chilling on my bed. "Hey, sorry I left you last night, I couldn't just leave Jonah alone after what happened" I sighed. "It's totally fine, but we are going shopping today so let's make the best of it?" Gabbie smiled. "UGH I love you" I laughed hugging her. I walked over to my closest. "Hey you want to borrow an outfit since you don't have any clothes?" I asked. "Please? You have really cute clothes" Gabbie laughed. "Sure, just pick, and if you're taking a shower then there is a bathroom right outside of my room" I smiled to her.

"Okay, thank you" she smiled as I grabbed my outfit and underclothes and towels and walked into the bathroom.

I turned on the water and waited until it was just right. I grabbed my phone and turned on "I love you" by Billie eilish. I sang along to the song. I decided to play a happy song instead of being depressed. I played "Sucker" by the Jonas brothers. I was literally screaming the lyrics. I could hear Gabbie laughing on the other side of the door. I finished my shower and got out. I got dressed and did my hair. I brushed my teeth and put on deoderant.

I left the bathroom and saw Gabbie fully ready and sitting on my bed. "Jonah and Jack are ready so let's head out" Gabbie laughed. "Alright" I grabbed my phone and my money and we left my room.
It's August and I don't get the girls back until January, if Noah sticks to the schedule. And the boys don't go back on tour until September 5th.

It's August 12th right now so my time with the boys is slowly coming to an end. Gabbie and I got downstairs and Jonah and Jack were both sitting on the couch.