I love you, Goodbye

T H I R T Y~S E V E N

Ellie

I ended up laying there, motionless, until I fell asleep. I just woke up and it's 9am. I didn't wanna wake up. I heard knocks on my door but I was too weak to get up. "Come in!" I tried yelling as my voice cracked. All the guys walked in and they looked sad as they saw me with a tear stained face. "What's wrong??" Jack asked coming over to sit next to me, followed by all the guys.

I sat up and looked at them. I couldn't help it, I just burst out crying and dropped into Daniel's lap. All the guys were trying to comfort me as best they could while not knowing why I was crying. We heard the front door open and shut. I quickly sat up and cleared my face. "If that's Zach or Anthony, or even Gabbie, they can't know I was crying, none of you were even suppose to know but I looked at you and couldn't help it" I sighed.

I jumped up and ran into my bathroom. I looked in the mirror and sighed. I don't wanna be you anymore....I splashed water in my face and I looked a little bit better. I left my bathroom and the guys were still sitting on my bed. "Ellie...you only have 4 days left with us and 2 days ago, we spent the day watching movies in pajamas and you're still wearing the pajamas from that night..." Corbyn sighed.

"Tell us what happened" Jonah looked at me. I held in the tears. No, you've already fucked up by showing them that you're upset. I went over and sat on my bed. I sat there quietly for a second. "Guys I promise, I'm fine, I was just thinking of my parents for a second, but I'm okay" I smiled. "Just know, we're here for you if you need to talk okay?" Jack assured me. I nodded and thanked them. They all started to leave my room.

I sat there silent and stared up at my ceiling. I keep my feelings bottled up inside because I don't want to open up to anyone, I feel like it makes me look weak and vulnerable. I don't want anyone to know how I feel, I'm not going to lie, it's been hard for me to do this but the only thing keeping me going is seeing the smiles on everyone's faces. I smiled remembering my time here, it was so fun. I started remembering the day Maddie brought me here and I met Corbyn, Daniel and Jack, then when they surprised me with Zach and I got to meet Jonah.

The guys were so accepting and loving when they found out I had 2 daughters. And they've made my LA experience the best ever, they've taken me so many places and I've seen so many things, I remember when I met Anthony and how happy he made me. Now I have 4 days left with the boys and I don't want it to be ruined because I'm sad. I jumped up and ran downstairs. I ran over to the couch and jumped on all of their laps. "Hey you, I was just about to call Anthony to let him know you're okay" Jonah chuckled.

"Why does he care?" I asked. Jonah turned to me, highly confused. "Because he's your boyfriend??" Jonah said confused. "Not anymore, he broke up with me" I took the rings off of my fingers and set them on the table. I walked to the kitchen. Jonah got up and followed me. "One, I know it made you sad to take those off" He grabbed my hand and put both rings back on. "And 2, when did he break up with you?" Jonah asked. "Around 4:30 in the afternoon yesterday, why?" I asked.

"That's not possible because at like 6 he called me asking if you were with us and wanted to know why you weren't answering his calls or opening the door for him" Jonah shook his head. "If he broke up with me at 4:30 in the afternoon then he could've been coming to talk to me about it in person" I sighed, opening the fridge. I don't feel hungry. "I highly doubt that" Jonah shut the fridge door. "What did he say?" Jonah asked.

"He told me it wasn't working and that we were moving too fast and he found somebody else" I looked away. "That makes no sense. If he did it over call then he wouldn't have come to talk to you about it in person right after" Jonah shook his head. "So what are you saying?" I asked. "I'm saying, I don't think it was Anthony that called and broke up with you" Jonah crossed his arms.