Roses You Left For Me

32

"Just bash the fucking door down!" Jimin yells from outside Jeongguk's front door. The boy furrows his eyebrows and glances over.

"I'm not bashing anyone's door down!" Yoongi argues back. Suddenly there's loud knocks on the door. "Jeongguk! Answer this fucking door before Jimin breaks his way in,"

With a heavy sigh, Jeongguk slowly sits up, running a hand through his hair as the knocks fill his ears. He groans and stands, almost falling with the lack of food in him. He slopes to the door and leans against the wall beside the entrance as he opens it, the chain stopping the door from going any further. 

He blinks the haze away from his eyes and sees a stressed looking Yoongi and Jimin with red and puffy eyes, breaking down into tears when he sees Jeongguk.

"Open the door," Yoongi says as he bends down to Jimin, rubbing a hand in circles on his back. Jeongguk momentarily closes the door to unlock the chain before he opens it again, letting Yoongi lead Jimin inside, but Jimin pulls away to crush Jeongguk in a hug.

"Thank god, thank god, thank god," he chants, holding the younger even closer. "I didn't know what to do, Kook- I- fuck I thought I lost you-" Jimin cries into Jeongguk's neck.
With Jeongguk as active as a zombie, he only manages a light pat to Jimin's back before he falls limp again, eyes barely remembering to blink as he stares at the same spot on the ground. 

Jimin finally manages to hold back his tears as he pulls away to look at Jeongguk. "You're so pale. Have you eaten?"

"Not really," Jeongguk mumbles. "I'm not hungry, hyung. Just wanna sleep,"

"But-"

"Let him sleep, Jimin," Yoongi butts in. "He can eat later,"

Jimin just nods and helps Jeongguk to his room instead of the couch, knowing that he'd be a lot more comfortable there. The younger sinks into the sheets, his back very much appreciating the softness of his mattress. 

Jimin tucks Jeongguk in, going as far as to kiss his forehead and whisper to him how much everyone loves him before he leaves, gently shutting the door as he goes.

When he wakes up, he feels a lot more rested than he did on the couch. His eyes flutter open, blinking a few times before he rolls over, pushing his face into the softness of the pillows. 

He lays like that for a moment before he slowly sits up, rubbing his face as he swings his legs over the side of the bed to stand. When he leaves his room, he sees Jimin pouring hot noodles into a bowl with Yoongi cleaning the counter.

"Hey sleepy head," Jimin says softly as he hands Jeongguk the bowl. "Go and sit down, you need to eat,"

Jeongguk just nods and sits down at the table, watching the pair as he eats. They seem to move so effortlessly around each other, so tuned to the other's ways and the way they act and live. It makes the youngest feel jealous that he doesn't have that anymore. 

It's only when he begins eating that he realizes how hungry he is. He almost feels lightheaded from eating so fast.

"Seokjin and Namjoon will be round soon," Jimin says as he sits at the table beside Jeongguk. "They just want to make sure you're okay. Do you want me to tell Hoseok too? He can let Taehyung know,"

Jeongguk just shrugs.

"I'll text him anyway. You don't have to talk to anyone, okay? Just- do you," Jimin says quietly as he ruffles Jeongguk's hair before he stands up to retrieve his phone.

It's maybe an hour later that Seokjin and Namjoon turn up at the apartment. Seokjin is immediately all over Jeongguk, hugging him tightly and telling him to never scare them like that again. All the sudden affection has him bursting into tears that he just can't seem to control.

"No, no, no, don't cry, Kookie, you're okay, it's okay," Seokjin soothes as he rocks Jeongguk side to side, holding onto him like his life depends on it.

"'s not o-okay," Jeongguk chokes out.

"Breathe, Kook. We can talk after, just breathe," Seokjin whispers as he runs a hand through the younger's hair. Jeongguk inhales a shuddery breath and nods into Seokjin's neck. 

Seokjin soothes him through his breathing, encouraging him to calm down and inhale and exhale the way he does. Jeongguk mimics the way the elder breathes until he's able to relax again, leaning into Seokjin who just holds him tightly.

"I owe you and Namjoon-hyung so much money," Jeongguk says quietly.

"We don't need it back, Kook," Seokjin says.

"I can't take that much from either of you, it's so much, I-"

"Jeongguk," Seokjin says quickly. "Breathe. And consider it a gift. If you want to pay us back, you can when you can. Don't stress about things that really don't matter, okay?"

"Okay," Jeongguk echoes.

"Okay. What we're going to do is look after you for a little while. That means no club, no Taehyung, and no drinking. And I know about Taehyung. Jimin told me everything,"

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you," Jeongguk murmurs.

"I can understand why you didn't," Seokjin says softly as his fingers card through Jeongguk's hair. "But do you understand why Jimin was so protective? You've been getting attached to another person so quickly and so soon after your breakup and it just wasn't healthy,"

He doesn't want to hear it, but he nods anyway. "Can I see him?" Jeongguk asks.

"Soon," Seokjin says. "If you really want to, I won't stop you. But you need to get better first. You've slipped into an episode and who's to tell how long it'll be before you come out of it. What happened to your meds?"

"I guess I used them the night Suho left. I don't know, I don't remember,"

"Okay, it's okay. I'll phone your doctor for a repeat prescription," Seokjin says quietly. Jeongguk just nods, the soothing touches of Seokjin touching his hair making him feel tired, even though he'd only woken up a little while ago. "Go to sleep, Kook. You obviously still need it,"