TheShatteredBoy

a few years later...

I was supprised i wasnt dead yet even tho thats what id really hoped for....still do....but i was ok i guess i had just gone through a problem, what happened was my friend id met from my school named michael had gotten together with rosie who had just started talking to me again...that was a big issue! I hated the way he treated her and how he always talked shit behind he back, how he said he was just gonna use her like the hoe he is and i was snapping, was not ok...all i did was make things worse out of jealousy im such a jelouse person and i hate it!!! I hate me!!! They broke up but in turn i got into a fight with Rosie and we didnt talk again....then all of a sudden something changed i was an adult now at the age of 19....id felt different...i was more resonable, more loveable, less aggressive,more hard on myself somehow, it really sucks bc no one understands how or why im the problem in life only i do but know one can truely understand why im so lonely but the problem itself...me. After the change carrington an old friend of mine who helped me get through junior year she and Rosie began to text me from nowhere and i got really excited id have someone to talk to. Things went great for a while all 3 of us old freinds texting and calling each other...till one day carrington asked me out....i liked her but not the way i loved Rosie but by this time i feelt Rosie wants nothing to do with me anymore when it comes to relationships i said yes anyways bc i wanted to leave colorado and move in with her in virginia, this was my first relationship where it has ever been affectionate so i was new and didnt know what to do and she said she could help and i was excited someone was actually gonna teach me how to love bc ive never have been loved.