TheShatteredBoy

drama, stress, and attacks

So a week before she made it to the springs i told michael and james (a new shady freind) not to come over while she was here...i was jelouse. They would take her from me because they are more experinced and really could get with whoever they wanted even the person i wanted to be with...but the next day they came over when i told them not to, i wanted them to leave i wanted to be alone with my girlfreind for the weekend i have but carrington said she would leave if they left. So they stayed and it hurt because when i wanted to show physical attention and cuddle with her that day but she turned away everytime i tried but no she played with michaels hair and cuddled with him let him sleep on her thighs my anxiety went sky high and i had 5-6 meltdowns when she was here...i never said a word because i cant control her life and it made her happy even tho i felt i am never going to be enough fo anyone. The next day i had to work and it was just shoka michael and carrington so of course my anxiety was sky high because it was 4:50 in the morning and her and michael where the only ones awake when i left. I was worried all day at work and when i came home she didnt talk to me or look at me but she had this face of happiness but also worrie so i had talked to michael and seen what happened and he said he was raped by her that day...i snapped kicked him out of my life for disloyalty but she told me he raped her...i didnt find any of that out until after we broke up but anyways....