TheShatteredBoy

Creation of TheShatterdBoy

I was freaking out i had to find a way home i went to my aunts house and they where not there so i started to head to the park again and then this rusted grey 1985 ford nearly hits me and so im frozen in fear and he opened his door and yelled get in the car kenny i jumped 3 fences and texted Rose out of fear! that was a mistake i known i cant text people when im freaking out it ends up giberish bull shit i would never do or say or think of i dont know why my stupid mind did that i just fucked up and i freaked and had a horrible night and the morning was painful when i got home i was freaking out still because of what i said and i was freaking out and had to let her know i love her im dead without her she was my dreams and again it been giberish then she called me out on being too sexual and i was so confused and for the first time scared of her and she said i only called her on her physical and sexual features...........huh........it....hurts so much....i tryed too hard....i should punch shit....no...yeah...i dunno why do i feel like this....just dont talk to her fade away from life......since then i have been dead inside nearly broke 3 fingers crying everyday, trying hard not to meltdown at work...i fucked up and i wish i could rewind slap myself in the face and tell myself not to do anything stupid....im too hard on myself i know but if its one thing i know its that i belive i am an empty shell with nothing inside but muscle used for work till broken like a tool....idk what she seen in me but she seen what i couldnt and it made me feel likei was someone....and for once i was happy i was gonna live i was liveing...but my stupidity and emotions got the best of me and now im a dead, lonely, peice of shit who shouldnt of lasted this long and when i do go no one is gonna care except maybe one....im just so broken im sorry if you dont wanna hear me cry in a book but i have no one to text right now...