The last night she stayed the night james had just left and michael was watching tv, me and carington where behind him laying verticle with my arm around her waist. Then she grabbed my hand and put it on her tit and i was freaking out! I would never touch a girl that way! ive never done it before! But on the outside i was calm and all my senses where throught the roof ive never felt this way before michael seen me and out of rage and jealousy left...the night just continued me doing stuff i would have been to scared to do and stuff i didnt know how to do, i wasnt in control, it felt wrong like i was being raped i didnt want to do it...i only wanted to show this kind of affection to one person!!!
It happened twice that night no control watching everything trying to fill the hole in my heart! All it did was cause future issues, i didnt sleep that night or a few after i had just felt broken work was long i felt if id told Rose i didnt enjoy it then carrington would get upset and if its one thing i hate doing is upsetting people so i thought everyone would be ok if i said it was great...so thats what i did...only problem was i was hurt inside. Its early june about a month later, im slowly dieing inside and no one can see except me but i still quiet....then i find out Rose had done something before her birthday and just knowing that one thing shot me into a depression and it hurt knowing Rose was marked by a guy who ive always wished to be because he is never lonely...ive been damaged...not yet broken...the more i thought about the guys that have all been with her and made her happy in a way...it was too much in my thoughts she was over me and never loved me in the first place...i hit bedrock and said there is only 2 choices.
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TheShatteredBoy
Non-Fictiona dramatic heart reaceing story based apon a true story about the life of a boy who was broken, but still somehow made it this far...
