Its july 8th has Been 4 days of chaos and depression and people want to help but dont know how, I had uninstalled all my social media apps face book first then today snapchat...yeaterday id unistalled instagram and looked at Roses profile so i could pretend she was there and everything was going to be ok...it didnt work...i just stumbled across a post and it was from Jason to her when they where dateing i fell deeper with what Rose had said what if it was true...i never said the stuff he said. I began freaking out uninstalled the app...that night id had a dream where Rose and Jason got back into the relationship and i ended up robbing a bank and crashing going 90 down the freeway....ik its not healthy to want to go 90 down the freeway and let go of the steering wheel and floor it....thats my mind everytime i go to work in the morning....maybe if i do go then people will be happy....in all honesty this may be my last book for a while....maybe going dark shutting off the lights...put down my animal and heart and mind and call it life and and work until i break....and i know she really loves me and i love her i cry every night for her i wish she was here i wish i had not been so stupid and fucked our lives up and i hate knowing life doesnt want us to be and i fear it...i love you Rose your my everything and i want you to be happy but i dont know how other than to let you go and you find a man who isnt so sexual so dumb so broken so loss in words to call you the things you want to be called....im sorry ive always failed you and have made your life so miserable....Rose im sorry if i cant keep you safe, happy, or loved. I failed you i failed me i failed my family im just.....so....done.
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TheShatteredBoy
Não Ficçãoa dramatic heart reaceing story based apon a true story about the life of a boy who was broken, but still somehow made it this far...
