Crystal Mist

Chapter 13: Love

Chevelle POV

I felt numb and tried to ignore the lingering pain in my heart as I arranged everything for Sir Von's treatment.

"Ms. Marin, yes. Buti nalang pumayag na si Mr. Castainer... we've been convincing him months ago pero ayaw talaga. All of these are all good dahil siya lang naman talaga ang hihintay namin. He can go here on Wednesday para ma-assess namin ulit ang condition niya." the doctor said.

"Ok. Noted po, doc." I said simply.

Sa isang pribado at elistang ospital magpapa-treatment si Sir Von. Everything here is so high-class and modern compared to Alcontar Medical Centre. I've heard of this hospital before and it's really the best one in the Philippines. Without any doubt, they could treat someone like Sir Von...

The doctor went on about the details and what-so and I mentally took note all of them. Buti nalang talaga at nursing ang kinuha ko dahil naiintindihan ko ang mga medical jargons na sinasabi ng doctor.

"You're the only one who's going to be with him throughout his treatment, right?" tanong ni doc out of the sudden.

Well... that's what I thought before. Bago ko makita ang girlfriend ni Sir Von kaninang umaga. Now that I think about it, siguro ay yung girlfriend niya ang mas madalas niya kasama niyan kaysa sa akin. Tagabigay lang siguro ako ng gamot or whatever.

"I'm not sure..." sabi ko sa maliit na boses.

The doctor seemed to ignore it and just kept on going on about more details.

Meanwhile, I was just dreading to go somewhere far today. I'm sure Sir Von won't mind if I go home late, right? Nandon naman yung girlfriend niya, hindi naman niya ako hahanapin. I'm not needed because he has a girlfriend already.

Pagkatapos ng visit ko sa hospital, I went to the shops. I watched a movie and ate by myself and it was a pretty lonely experience.

All I see were couples holding hands, eating together and talking to each other. It made me feel so small and pathetic for being by myself. Mas lalo pa akong nabwisit sa sarili ko dahil nai-imagine ko lahat ng couples na nakikita ko na bilang si Sir Von at yung girlfriend niya.

Somehow, my heart aches at each thought of it.

When I've finally had enough, I went to Sir Von's home just to find it to be oddly quiter than usual.

As I entered the house, napagtanto ko na wala ni isang kasambahay o bodyguard ang nasa loob! Where the heck are they? Why did they disappear out of the sudden?

Umalis ba si Sir Von at ang girlfriend niya ng biglaan? I guess I'm really not that important enough for him just to leave me a little notice or something...

Ang sakit pala.

Suddenly, all the pain that I've been holding in all day bursted into hundreds of emotions. My knees felt weak as I naturally knelt on the ground and cried my heart out.

Just when I thought I found happiness and peace the past few days, delusion lang pala 'yun. Nagjo-joke lang ulit ang heavens sa akin. Sabagay, kailan pa ba nasa pabor ko ang mundo, hmm? Sa lagay na'to, dapat sanay na ako.

Nakakainis! Kasalanan ko kasi bakit ako naging kampante sa pagiging masaya. Heto ako ngayon, completely letting my guard down and being broken once again.