𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍'𝐒 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏, ⁿᵃ ʲᵃᵉᵐⁱⁿ

𝐢 𝐚𝐦 𝐬𝐨 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲

[11 July 2019 , 9:59 pm]

Jaemin catches him breathe as he stops in front of Hyekyung's house's door. He knocked on the door but there was no answer.

He knocked again but no answer. He did it for the third try and still no answer and that's when he starts to freak out.

"Hyekyung! Open up, please..." He said, almost shouting but not too loud. He continues on knocking, banging on the door even.

He felt empty and worried. He doesn't know what is happening or is not updated about Hyekyung. He was freaking out and it shows.

He heard the elevator door opened and turn his gaze and saw Hyekyung there, frozen and shocked to see Jaemin. He then saw Bbangkyu beside her.

Bbangkyu barked and move to Jaemin's side, playing around his legs. Jaemin smiles softly and kneels down, caressing Bbangkyu.

"What are you doing here?" She asked, coldness in her tone of voice

"Are you taking monthly or at least checkups every month or week?" He asked and Hyekyung tilted her head. Jaemin stands up, looking at Hyekyung.

"What are you talking about?" She asked, not getting what he means but she already has a hint of what he's trying to say.

"Your past... is it affecting you? Are you still having daily checkups?" He said and she stiffened, her fingers flinched at the mention of her past.

She grips on her bag and looks down, trying to talk hut her mouth won't open. Her hand went to her chest where her scar is.

"Yes..." She said softly, not even bothering to look at Jaemin.

"Why? Why didn't you tell me about your past? It's such a big deal yet why?" Jaemin asked again and Hyekyung could feel knots forming in her stomach.

She hated talking about her past and the last thing she wanted was people to treat her like she's so weak.

She never really had a childhood after hitting 5. She was already suffering at the age of 5 but she was only taking medication.

But when she turned 7, it was getting worse. She had to stay in the hospital and she hated the fact she felt lonely and it was always so quiet in her room.

It was so terrifying to think that you might not ever wake up. It was terrifying to lie down on the bed with machines beside you and needles stuck in your arms.

It was terrifying for her to feel alone, to feel weak, to feel like crying. Which is why she never cried loudly or ever sobbed when she was sick.

She was scared that she might not ever wake up and doesn't want to waste her tears by letting other people hear her so, she has always kept silent about it.

She was sensitive and she hated that.

She felt Bbangkyu's fur on her legs and looked down. She saw a tear escape her eye and that's when she realized she was crying.

She tried wiping them away but they just continue to fall. She tells herself to stop but she doesn't, it just continues to fall.

She hated the fact that she couldn't share a great childhood to her fans. She has always kept her past private and when people ask her about her childhood, she just says they're great even though it's not.

She was tired of always saying positive words that negative words about her past piled up in her head.

Bbangkyu sits beside her, staying close to her. Jaemin was just frozen on his spot, staring at the crying Hyekyung.

He gulped and walked towards her. He gently wrapped his arms around her, thinking that she's as vulnerable as glass right now.

He closes his eyes as Hyekyung tried not to sob. Jaemin starts to caress her hair.

"It's okay to cry loudly... it's okay to sob... don't cry quietly because that's so much painful...." He whispered to her ears and Hyekyung starts to sob.

Her grip on his shirt became tighter as her tears strained Jaemin's jacket but he could care less, it was all about Hyekyung.

[10:34 pm]

Hyekyung stares at the TV, not even caring about the show on the screen. Jaemin glance at her from her kitchen and sighed.

He stirred the tea before exiting the kitchen with two mugs of tea. He placed them on the coffee table in front of the sofa where Hyekyung is sitting on.

He looks at her staring at the TV. He moves to sit beside her and caress her hair.

"Here, I made tea," Jaemin said softly, treating her like porcelain. Any wrong movement that can hit her, she will break and he wants to avoid that.

"T-thanks..." She said softly and this broke his heart.

"I'm sorry about everything... Eunhyuk Hyung told me about your past and I didn't... I had no idea.." He said, softly and ruffled his hair.

"It's okay.. I never really wanted to talk about it to anyone, especially you. I know you won't see me the way I don't want to be seen but I just don't want to...

I didn't want to worry you by thinking that I still have that disease even though I'm healthy now..." She said and Jaemin sighed.

He put a strand of her hair behind her ears and kiss her forehead.

"Listen, I'm sorry about all of this.." Jaemin said, softly.

"I didn't mean for this to happen and those words I said before... please, forget about them," Jaemin said and Hyekyung looked over at Bbangkyu's bed, thinking about what to say.

"Jaemin... Let's take a short break from each other..."

"What? Why?"

"feel like our fight or more like our words is just affecting our usual selves everyday. Fand has been pointing it out to me and you too.

I don't want us to fight then make up then fight again so.... let's just take a break from each other."

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