12BU || Chanlix [Completed]

seventeen

Its been nearly two weeks since I lost my notebook and honestly I'm freaking out.

Where. Is. It?

My backpack is full of crumpled pieces of paper because my emotions have been all over the place and changbin and jisung have started to notice. I start hyperventilating just thinking about it I'm so stressed.

I've been skipping lunch a lot lately.

I can't help but think that Felix's table keeps looking at me.

Like I know I'm head over heels but fucking leave me alone I'm in the middle of a crisis can't you see that?

Fuck it, I've been skipping everything lately.

It's just been so hard trying not to think about someone out there reading what's in that notebook and telling Felix or Changbin about how in love I am with Felix.

I know I was jealous of Changbin but I didn't want to hurt him that's why I didn't tell him anything. I don't want to hurt him. I don't want him to hate me.

He probably already hates me since I'm dodging his texts, calls, when he tries to hunt me down in the hallways.

Until I'm sure that no one has read my notebook, it's better I just disappear.