Rocket Fizz

June

somewhere between midnight and the time where reality ceases to exist
I unravel in your arms
coming apart at the seams and spilling my guts into your lap

I want you to whisper in my ear
in that singsong voice of yours
that we'll be okay
that change is inevitable and
that ultimately this will be a good thing.

I want you to tell me that you love me. That you always have and you always will and that I belong to you and only you and that I've been absolved of every shitty thing I've done.

I want you to lie.

Write my name in the stars because that is the only place it'll ever be truly remembered.

I want my story to be told to the generations. a story of a girl who loved too much and payed the ultimate price for it. a warrior princess like Athena who held her chin high and rushed into the heat of battle without hesitation or fear.

but no, I'm not that girl.
because I'm afraid.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid.

No, I'm more like Antigone. Born of sorrow but doing her best to do good by others and failing anyways.

Don't hate me when I tell you that I rock myself to sleep at night whispering to myself all the promises I've made and couldn't keep.