Over and Over

Chapter 10

(Holly's P.O.V)

We had packed everything up and moved everything into the attic. Everything was bare. Mum's rosy smell vanished. Everything, gone. I managed to save the pictures and place them them all carefully in the living room and mine and Liam's bedroom.

I was giving up on everything. I don't believe I can do this anymore. The thought of Danny leaving, tore a piece from inside and it hurt like fuck. What if he does gets hurt or something? I won't be able to live with myself anymore.

(Ashton's P.O.V)

We had all come over to Luke's house. Liz invited us all. We sat around the table while everyone tried to eat their food. Eyes filled with puffiness and old memories.

Holly had almost nothing on her plate, yet poked her forked onto the plate in four beats, lightly as she stared through her plate.

"So what's new guys?" Danny asked breaking the silence.

"My mum and brother are dead. My younger bro is rotting in hospital alone. You are going back to war, probably just to get shot. That's what's new guys!" Holly said across the table, piercing daggers at Danny standing up from the table in between Luke and Ben. She left into the back yard, closing the door behind her.

"What was that about?" Ben asked.

"I'm going back to work Thursday. But I don't understand, she was fine about it before!" He scratched the back of his neck. "I'm sorry about her, I'll go get her."

"No, you sit. She'll probably sheath you. Who's going to volunteer?" Liz said.

"It's okay, I'll go check on her. It's going to be fine!" I said, reassuring Danny placing my hand his shoulder, getting up from my seat, taking my plates into the kitchen and dropping them into the sink and assured everyone else to carry on eating.

I slowly opened the door and poked my head out to see the hammock slowly swinging back and forth. I went over and sat beside her with masses of inches between us. "Alright? Actually stupid question... I know things are hard. It's okay to be angry." She sniffled quietly with her head buried in the pillow she held facing away from me. I rubbed her knee, trying to get her to reply so i'm not talking to myself.

"We are all going to forget them one day ain't we?"

"Hell no! They'll always be apart of us! 5SOS wouldn't even been born without James and his tech... Is that what your worried about? Forgetting them?" I moved closer to her and laid down aside her. Being near her gives me electrical tingles through my body which made my stomach churl. She slid down and used my arm as a pillow and laid back yet still covered her face with the pillow.

"Yeah I am scared, I'm scared of forgetting and losing more people in my life."

"Choose any three stars!"

She pointed out to the sky with her pinky, "Them three because they are really close to each other."

"Them three are your Mum, your Dad and James. Now whenever you look up at the sky, remember that they will always looking down at you and that they are proud of you. Okay? And not only that. Wherever you are, They are in your heart and their memories are in your brain. How can you forget them?" She turned to face me, our lips were almost an inch apart. I had the urge to lean in, but I knew the feeling weren't mutual which broke my heart. A girl as amazing as her would never fall for a doof bag like me.

"Damn your cheesiness! No wonder there's millions girls dreaming of you right now! Harry and Lauren are so lucky to have a bro like you." She shuffled backwards leaving another couple of inches between us.