You're Mine / ROCHAN

Allow me

Rowoon was left all alone at the seaside looking up at the sky. He shut his eyes as he feel the light breeze hit while he was at a momentary peace.

He decided to grab a drink and drank alone while enjoying the beautiful view. He didn't notice that the time is flying by so fast and that he was already drunk as hell and so he went back to the resthouse.

The moment Rowoon arrived at the guesthouse he saw the members happily playing truth or dare.

"Rowoon, join us" Inseong shouted causing Chani to look at the taller's direction

Chani once again gave Rowoon a very sweet smile and the taller knew right there and then that he badly want to join the game and sit beside the boy. Unfortunately, Juho is sitting in between the two which made Rowoon quite disappointed

"So what are the rules?" he glanced at Chani's side profile

"So beautiful" he thought to himself while waiting for the answer

Inseong finally responded to Rowoon's question "Same rules honey. Weve done this before right?" he questioned

"Well, i don't want to lose in this game. I just want to win in this... just this one" he uttered

The boys noticed that Rowoon looks like someone who drowned himself into alcohol which made them quite hesitatant to start the game but suddenly Chani spoke into a loud tone

"The usual truth or dare game Rowoon. Stop acting dumb" Chani let out a small laugh as he inched closer to the table to grab a chip

The taller male gave Chani one last glance before starting with the game

"Okay Dawon-ssi" Juho exclaimed when the bottle stopped at Dawon's direction

"Truth or dare?" he asked

"Truth is for the weak. I'll go for dare" Dawon said as he prepared himself for the possible dare

"Call one of our managers and say that you want to date him" Juho said and the others started laughing

Dawon immediately dialed their manager's phone number and confessed causing the others to cringe.

Their manager knew that everything is a dare and that it is nothing so serious so when they were finally satisfied, they once again spinned the bottle.

This time, the bottle pointed at Taeyang.

"What the fuck" he groaned, lazily placing his hands on his face as if he is trying to hide himself.

"Hey hey Taeyang-ssi stop whining and go choose. Truth or dare" Juho mercilessly asked the boy

"Truth"

Taeyang's answer earned a lot of boos from the other members

"Ya Taeyang, since when did you become this weak?" Dawon teasingly asked

Taeyang rolled his eyes "C'mon! I'm sleepy. What is your question?"

"If SF9 were girls, who would you date?"

All eyes are on the boy as they patiently wait for the younger to answer the question

"This is a recycled question" Taeyang said "I would date Hwiyoung" he added with an exaggerated shiver of disgust

"Im used to it. I know i'm that hot" Hwiyoung commented

While the others are busy laughing at what Hwiyoung just said, Rowoon looked at Chani's side and offered him a drink

"I'm fine" the younger declined which triggered Rowoon's drunk state.

"CHANIIII!"

They looked at Rowoon with a shocked face. They never heard Rowoon shout at Chani like that. It was indeed very unusual for them to see him reacting that way just because the younger male declined his offer to drink

"Rowoon whats wrong?" Youngbin asked, worried

"Nothing. Shall we continue with this stupid game?" he sarcastically said. "Stop spinning that fucking bottle. I'll volunteer"

Wanting the atmosphere to be less stressful because of the older's sudden behavior, Hwiyoung turned his head to the left side and asked "Okay hyung, truth or dare?"

Rowoon clenched his jaw before answering "Truth!"

"I'll ask a very common question" he started "What is your biggest regret?"

Chani gave Hwiyoung a confused look. His heart is pounding as he anticipates Rowoon's answer

The taller side eyed Chani. He wanted to grab him and take the boy into his arms. He is slowly sinking as he gathers his thoughts before answering

"Losing him" he sighed

The members started to get a lot more suspicious because Rowoon's been behaving weirdly for the last couple of days

Chani bit his lip upon hearing the answer and rubbed the bridge of his nose. He was about to grab another chip but Rowoon spoke once more and it made him stop all his little movements

"Iam having a hard time redoing what i used to do..." he turned his head a bit to stare at Chani's beautiful side profile "because everything i came across bumped to the memories of him"

Chani froze and looked at the taller who is still not breaking his stare. There was a pause from Rowoon before he continued

"I don't want you to fall inlove with someone else because half of me is terrified that you'll get to the point of realizing that you'll no longer need me" he said while looking at the younger. "I don't want to spend a day without hearing anything from you. Its fucking selfish, i know" he added "But i dont want you to start or end your day and know that my absence doesn't make a difference"

Rowoon once again paused which made Chani look away from the taller

"Chani, look at me" he ordered the younger

"Rowoon, you're drunk" he uttered

Rowoon looked at the younger, forcing himself to hold back the tears

"Chani, this is such a terrible thing to feel--- missing you" his voice cracked "because it seems like i can't let you leave my mind, as well as i can't do anything to have you here on my side again. Take me back. i know this might sound pathetic, but here i am asking for a moment with you" he added, as his tears rolled down from his cheeks

Chani stood up and and looked at the taller's dark expressive eyes

"Rowoon" he started. "Help me heal because i don't want to stay this damaged forever. The last moment i heard you say that you want to go, please mean it. Pretend you didn't see me. Pretend I was just a memory you tried so hard to erase. Pretend that i don't matter to you anymore" he sighed heavily. "I want to yearn for happiness again, so please make your goodbye permanent. Make it possible for me to give back to myself"

A long sigh once again slipped his lips as he tries to control his own tears from falling

"You are my calm. You are my rest yet my sorrow, but you left me all unwell, so please i'm begging you. Allow me to rebuild my broken self" he uttered, his voice shaking extremely

"Stop playing with my feelings. I need to heal. Please, allow me to heal, Rowoon"