You're Mine / ROCHAN

It hurts more. It always hurts more

"I love you"

"What are you two doing?"

Chani immediately pulled away from the kiss when he heard a woman's voice from behind

There he saw Hyeyoon, standing at the front door, inhaling sharply.

The younger stood up so quickly and faced Hyeyoon. The fake smile that was painted on her face was enough to make Chani worry over his ex lover's girlfriend.

"N-" Rowoon cut Chani before he could even say something

"Chani go out" the older ordered

"What the fuck Rowoon? She saw us kissing" Chani exclaimed. "Your girlfriend saw us kissing"

"I said go out!" Rowoon screamed, eyes raging like that of a rabid animal causing Chani to go straight to the dorm lobby

The moment Chani left the dorm, Rowoon inched closer to Hyeyoon

"What are you doing here?" he asked, looking at the door and not meeting the girl's eyes

"That's the first thing you want to ask me?" she smirked and took a step forward "I went here to visit my sick boyfriend. Am i not allowed?"

"You should've texted me first. You can't just come here whenever you want" Rowoon replied in an almost admonishing way "This is a dorm, Hyeyoon. There are 9 of us here"

"9?" she asked as disappointment washed over her features. "You sure how to do math Rowoon? I only saw 2..." she added. "My boyfriend and his ex lover, kissing right before my eyes"

Scrambling for a response, Rowoon mumbled out a stutter, not quite forming a proper answer

"Don't blame him. I was the one who did it" the taller coldy answers

Sparks of irritation flared from Hyeyoon. Releasing all the pent up emotions in her that she had been keeping.

"You're making things complicated, Rowoon" she sighed "Let's discuss this later when you finally gain your senses back" she added and left the room

Rowoon brushed hands through his hair "Fuck!"

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Chani who is still at the dorm lobby decided to get up from his seat but a familiar girl came up to him, stopping him from going away

"Can we talk?" Hyeyoon asked sincerely

Chani nodded and followed Hyeyoon to the playground outside their dorm

Hyeyoon handed Chani the coffee she bought "Here"

Chani was nervously scratching the back of his coffee cup before he spoke up

"I'm sorry. He was the one who ki-"

"No, its fine" Hyeyoon started, cutting Chani off. "I know you weren't the one who kissed him"

"But--" Chani got cut off by Hyeyoon once again

"No. No Chani. It's fine." she rubbed her arm nervously. "I should be the one apologizing"

"Why? What do you mean?" Chani asked in confusion causing Hyeyoon to avert her eyes away from the younger male

"Chani-ya listen to me okay?"

"What is it?" Chani asked, almost came out as a whisper.

"He chose me, over you" she started. "And everyone even him kept whirling the same old question. Why me when they all thought he was made for you" she added, somehow with guilt. "You have no idea how hard it was facing yourself in the mirror every single day and wonder if you finally cleaned the surface that was once a mess of a beautiful love story."

Hyeyoon bit her inner cheek as she is forcing herself to hold back the tears. "It was hard filling the gaps that you knew someone else occupied for too long. It was difficult because i could hear the thump in his chest when I hug him close, but wasn't sure if it beats for me now, or if it is still beating from the hope of you" her voice slowly cracking

Hyeyoon spent a couple of seconds in silence before continuing. "I know there wasn't supposed to be a competition since he is my boyfriend now, but love always had its battle so enticing not to fight back. Although he chose me, I know you'll never completely leave his life" she stated, trying to be calm as possible. "He built a museum of memories that nobody is invited to come. Not even me, Chani. I know that. I fucking know that"

Chani wanted to run away. He wanted to collapse and stay away from all people. Its been months, but look at him, hurting again. Overdosing himself from sadness. It was easier telling people that he was over Rowoon when in fact he really is not.

"Chani, i love him. I love him so sincerely and i am willing to face all odds."

The younger male turned to her, face full of shock.

"I still love him. I still do..." he confessed. "And i dont know when i'll stop" Chani had no choice but to let everything out that is bothering him at the current situation.

"I know" Hyeyoon smiled. "That's why i wanted to say sorry if this broke you. I am going to love him. I am going to make you feel at ease that he is in good hands. I promise, and i am sorry if this hurts you." she closed her eyes allowing the tears to freely fall down on her cheeks. "I am going to put up a home with new things, and i will give my future son his beautiful eyes. I am going to stay with him and trade my sleep just so i could comfort him all night when he's upset and tired from work. I am going to kiss him, every now and then until the taste of your lips completely dissolves in his memory." she added, facing the younger. "I am going to hold him and will fight for him and i am going to make him see that i am worthy of love."

"I know you still love him and he still loves you too, but i love him Chani. I love him just as you do and i can't let him go. I don't want to let him go. i'm really sorry"

Hyeyoon stared at the younger, her heart pounding. Her current emotions is stuck somewhere between pain and guilt.

She stood up and bowed goodbye to Chani who is now left sitting all alone on the bench.

When he notices that Hyeyoon's shadow disappeared from his sight, he decided to let all his emotions out. He never knew that after all these months of mending what is broken inside him, he finds himself breaking down over the same thing again.

There, he cried silently. He can feel it in his throat as his eyes becomes blurry from all the tears. He holds his breath just so he wont make any unnecessary noise that might disturb the neighborhood.

"I don't want to let him go"

Chani could still hear Hyeyoon's last sentence that stabs him right in his chest. He is hurt and he has no goddamn idea how he should carry all the pain that is lingering inside him.

"I thought i was over him. I thought i was doing so well, but he once again murdered me with that kiss. That one powerful kiss that felt like coming home after almost a lifetme of being lost. It made me breathless"