The New Girl (Camren)

Chapter 30

Dinah's POV

Two weeks have passed since Camila and Lauren have spoken last. I still can't believe Camren broke up and I seriously can't believe what Camila had done. If they had an arguement, I would say they should just make up, but this is major. Camila cheated on Lauren and I'm not so sure this is an easy fix to be honest. If they were to get back together, it would take awhile for Lauren to be able to trust Camila the same way.

They both have seemed so depressed lately and it hurts me to see them this way. Lauren has been hanging out with Normani and Ally a lot, but she hasn't opened up to me which is understandable. I am closer with Camila and it has always been that way.

There is only one week of school left and it worries me that they aren't even on speaking terms. This summer was supposed to be amazing and I can't imagine us spending it apart. Camila cancelled her trip to Brasil just to spend more time with Lauren and now I'm not so sure she is going to keep it that way. It's scary how much one mistake can change things.

I walk into the lunchroom holding hands with Phil as we talk about Chris Brown's new song. He opens the door for me and kisses me goodbye because he has lab.

I approach our usual table to find Ally, Normani, and Lauren on one side and Camila on the other with headphones in.

"Hey yo. What's up?" I try to start a conversation.

Everyone nods awkwardly and Ally waves excited as I take a seat next to Camila.

"Mila. Come with me," I gesture getting up from my seat.

She follows behind slowly until we reach the hallway. There are dark circles under her eyes and it looks like she hasn't slept in days. Camila hasn't been paying much attention to what she looks like or wears, either. Today she has on gym shorts and an old baggy t shirt with no makeup.

"What's wrong?" I ask her concerned.

"Nothing has been the same without Lauren. I miss her. I need her. I don't know what to do. She won't answer my texts or calls and I understand that she is mad. I just want her back," she replies with tears forming in her eyes.

"I know Mila," I respond while hugging her.

"I'm going to go to the bathroom. I need some time alone. Thanks for caring," she smiles sadly as she walks down the hall.

I don't know what to do to help. Both of my friends are upset and I can't do anything to fix it.

Camila's POV

(that night)

Another Friday has come and not a minute has gone by that I'm not regretting what I did. I miss Lauren, but right now we both need time to ourselves.

I have to get my mind off of this, because I'm driving myself insane. For the past two weeks, I have not spent time with any of my friends outside of school because it just didn't feel right. I know I can trust Dinah, but I don't want to put her in the middle of this.

I have no choice but to call Justin and talk to him.

I dial his number and wait anxiously for him to answer.

"Hey," he speaks calmly.

"Hi. I need to talk to you. Can we hangout or something?" I ask embarrassed that it would come to this.

"Sure. I'll pick you up in about an hour. I have the perfect place," he responded.

I agree before hanging up and getting ready quickly.

--- (time passing)

Justin opens the door to his car for me, which instantly brings back the terrible memories of the night I have regretted everyday since then.

"Where are we going?" I ask.

"It's a surprise," he smiles.

I don't know what he has planned, but at this point I really don't care as long as I can get my mind off losing Lauren.

After a few minutes, we arrive at the beach that Lauren and I had went to once on a date. I try not to think about that because I don't want to cry.

I honestly don't know what to do. I can't trust Justin with anything because I know he will tell my cousin. My cousin would tell his mom who would tell my mom.

I guess I can just tell him that things have been really crazy lately and see where it goes.

He places down a blanket with some snacks because I told him I had already ate, which was a lie.

We sit close to each other in silence for a few moments.

"I don't know what happened the other night. I'm sorry if I was moving too fast or," he tried to apologize but I cut him off.

"It's not that. It's something else. It's complicated and I don't really want to talk about it," I explain.

"Ok. Well if you're sure I didn't do anything wrong. Let's just try to enjoy tonight," he smiled.

Justin is a really nice guy and I hope this is the beginning of a great friendship.

Within moments, I'm thinking about Lauren and about to cry. I can see Justin looking at me and he immediately notices there is something wrong.

"Hey," he says cupping my chin gently so that I look into his eyes.

"You're beautiful. Please don't get upset," he puts his arm around me.

I just nod lightly before looking him in the eyes.

He cups my chin again, but with a little more force and kisses me. I don't pull back because I miss kissing Lauren and this is the closest thing I can get to that. It is no where close to what I feel when I'm with her, but it is something at least.

It didn't feel right, but this time it wasn't cheating. I am just confused and upset.

I push him back onto the blanket and straddle him. We kiss for awhile as our tongues wrestle. He runs his hands up and down my sides never separating our lips.

I lightly hold onto his face and mess with his hair, never breaking the kiss either.

Soon after, he tugs on my shirt and I allow him to pull it off, revealing my stomach and my bra.

I begin to feel overwhelmed and regretful again as I pull away from him.

I grab my shirt and throw it on quickly before stepping back slowly.

"I can't do this," I mumble.

"Camila, I'm so sorry. I thought you were ready," he tried to explain.

"It's not that. It's really complicated,"I answer.

He just stares at me confused as to what to do next.

"I would walk home, but I would have to cross the highway and I'm not sure I want to die. Would you please take me home?" I ask with a few tears rolling down my face.

"Sure! Are you ok? Do you need anything?" He asks concerned.

I shake my head slowly and open the door to his car.