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Chapter Ten: Inscription - Home

Chloe's POV

We spent two incredible days in Paris. It was like being on a honeymoon. Well not exactly, more like a holiday far away? I don't know, the point is, it was blissfull, peacefull. Briefly, I was happy. We were happy. Well, it's not that we're not anymore. But we're on the train on our way to London. I guess I'm worried the dream will end the second we step off this train, and the problem and the pain will come back. But he seems different now, more determined. I'm just thinking If I let this happen... Is it gonna happen again? Is he gonna hurt me again?

We're sitting on the train, I'm resting my head on his shoulder and we're listening to music together.

You remind me of my past
That's how I know that this won't last
And I know I should go pack
But where's the fun in that?

Oh, I can see the future, it doesn't look pretty
I'm lookin' in your eyes, I'm ready to be hurt again
Feel some type of way whenever you're with me
I know we're fighting fire with fire, but I'm
Ready to be hurt, hurt again
Ready to be hurt, hurt again
I'm here, hoping you'll prove me wrong
Come here, I wanna be proven wrong
But we're so back and forth, by the time that we figure it out
We can't figure it out, mm

Sometimes it freaks me out how my phone can detect my mood and what I'm thinking. I'm fighting the urge to cry. Because then I'll have to tell him what's wrong. I'll have to tell him that I'm scared... Scared of getting too comfortable... Scared of getting hurt... Scared of... Well... Him...

He takes my phone and starts playing 'Fire Away'. I can't help smiling. I look up at him, she shakes his head silently asking 'what's wrong'. I give him a smile and a peck on his cheek, then I look away and close my eyes, listening to the music.

When this didn't make me open up and tell him what's wrong. He chose another song.

Kiss the tears right off your face
Won't get scared, that's the old, old, old me
I'll be there, time and place
Lay it on me, all you're hold, hold, holding

Time, time only heals if we work through it now
And I promise we'll figure this out

I will take your pain
And put it on my heart
I won't hesitate
Just tell me where to start
I thank the oceans for giving me you
You saved me once and now I'll save you too
I won't hesitate for you

Don't you ever say goodbye
Cross my heart, and you can keep, keep, keep mine
If I could only read your mind
Then I could map out all the ways to make it right

Time, time only heals if we work through it now
I, I promise we'll figure this out

I will take your pain
And put it on my heart
I won't hesitate
Just tell me where to start
I thank the oceans for giving me you
You saved me once and now I'll save you too
I won't hesitate for you

Pull me close and I'll hold you tight
Don't be scared 'cause I'm on your side
Know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you
Pull me close and I'll hold you tight
Don't be scared 'cause I'm on your side
Know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you

I will take your pain
And put it on my heart
I won't hesitate
Just tell me where to start
I thank the oceans for giving me you
You saved me once and I'll save you too
I won't hesitate for you

Without moving too much, he smoothly wipes the few tears falling down my face and onto his T-shirt.

'It's not gonna be all bad. It's not gonna hurt for much longer. If you let it. And if you let me help you. I realise how difficult going back to London is on you. I know what you're thinking. And I wish me telling you it's gonna be different, better, would calm you down. But I understand if it doesn't. But know I will try my best to make you believe me when I tell you, I love you, and I'm here to stay.'