THE ENGAGEMENT.

PLEASURE AND BUSINESS 2

ROMAN...

Oh shit. I had gone ahead and made things awkward between us. We were in a good place but I couldn't keep my dick in my pants and I  fucked shit up. After seeing her in my shirt only, I couldn't erase the picture out of my mind. My brain warned me not to mix pleasure with business but the pull towards her was more powerful, then she went and bit her lower lip and that was it for me. The actions that followed were beyond my control. Oh how relived I felt once I had my lips on hers which were soft, tender and fragile.

The part that hurt was how she didn't kiss me back. I thought she would because of how intensely she looked at me when we were in my bedroom. I thought she felt the spark too but unfortunately I had clearly misinterpreted everything. She instead stopped me and angrily told me never to kiss her again. I felt like someone was piercing my heart with needles after hearing the words she told me and the tone she used.

I walked to my room to find my phone. I immediately texted her letting her know how sorry I was and promised her I would never do it again because I didn't want to complicate things between me and her. I called Carter immediately after asking him if he was available to hang out. I needed to get out of this apartment to avoid thinking about what I just did.

"Man, she was cold. She was upset. I messed up big time. My stupidity reading the signs wrongly. The sign had the colour red on it but I instead saw green," I told Carter while at a bar.

"That's some messed up shit. Do you love her?" he asked me a question whose answer I had not even thought about.

Did I love Eleanor? I didn't know. All I knew was that I felt a strong pull towards her. I enjoyed seeing her smile and laugh. I always wanted to hold her in my arms and last night when she slept off in my arms, I wanted to stay with her on the couch but I didn't want to overstep. I loved how on the outside she displayed a strong happy carefree woman yet deep inside she was dealing with shit from her father. I loved spending time with her, it was easy being around her. The part about love I didn't know, I still needed to think it through.

"I honestly don't know," I replied.

"Then why did you kiss her?"

"So that I could know but I still don't know,"

"I understand you. I have been there before," Carter replied.

"Where?" I asked. Carter had never been in love with anyone, atleast that's the way he acted. He called love a scam.

"Very funny. I have been in a position where I felt something for a woman but I wasn't sure if it was actually love or my usual games,"

"So was it love?"

"It turned out to be,"

"How did you know?"

"I just did and you will. It's unexplainable but you will just know," he responded with a distant mind.

ELEANOR...

How dare he kiss me?
"What do you mean how dare he, isn't that what you wanted?" that nagging voice in my mind spoke.

Yes it felt ecstatic but it wasn't supposed to happen. It's forbidden actually. I am not the type to betray a sister and I was not about to start now.

I opened the door to Bethany's apartment and got in.

"Finally, where did you spend the night?" Beth asked me as soon as she saw me.

"With a friend. I went to Roman's, picked my purse and went to a friend's place. I am sorry I got you worried,"

"What matters you're okay?" She responded then looked at what I was wearing.

"Those clothes are awfully big for a woman"

"Yeah the friend I spent the night with is a man,"

"Do I know him?"

"Nuh. So I told Roman everything that happened yesterday after he left," I tried to divert the topic.

"I thought you said you picked your purse from his place and left so when did you tell him?"

oh my God!

"Well before I left his place, I told him everything and he is cool with it. Are you?"

"I mean two months is a long time but if he is cool with it then I am as well," she responded sadly sitting down on the couch.

"When will you tell him how you feel? I think you should,"

"Why? Has he said anything about me?"

Oh daim. I didnt know whether to lie to her or tell her the truth. I needed to think this through but there was no time to do so, so I went with the truth.

"I mean he has not said anything to me, me and him are not that close for him to open up about his feelings to me but I think you should talk to him very soon. That's my opinion,"

"I want to. You don't know how much I think about how his lips would feel on mine, his embrace,"

Oh God she was killing me softly.

"Okay, okay, enough haha," I stopped her.

"I just need some more time to see if he shows any signs of affection toward me then I will totally tell him,"

"Okay, cool," I responded and rushed to my room.

What was I thinking, lying to Beth. It wasn't that big of a secret to keep. I convinced myself. It was a one time thing that would never happen again and I would make sure of it. I decided to avoid Roman from then on. He had earlier sent me a text message but I deleted it even without opening to read whatever he had sent. I then blacklisted his number to avoid recieving calls and messages from him.

(Hey there, do you think Eleanor is wrong not to tell Beth about the kiss? Don't forget to vote if you liked this chapter. Thank you.)