The Daughter of Fire and Ice

3am confessions

||So I saw this on Pinterest and since my life's a mess right now I thought what's the worst that could happen?

So confession numero uno (lets kick off with the big one)
I'm in love with my best friend. 
He's the best, he's always there, doesn't judge me ever and he knows almost everything about me.
Thing is, I ruined his relationship with another girl and so he doesn't wanna date anyone for the fear of it happening again, add on the fact I'm about a year 9 months younger and he stopped liking me cause of that anxiety and judgement from others and the cherry on top of me being a constant mess, and you have a banana splits of why he doesn't have feelings for me.
Worse off he likes me, just not in that way and told me I shouldn't assume it'll never happen, I just shouldn't hold on to that.

Yay :|

Confession numero dos
I am afraid of hurting everyone I love, my second family, so I start dramas and push everyone away so that when my timer stops, the ticking time bomb I am, doesn't hurt them.

Confession numero tres
I constantly feel stressed to live up to some imaginary future.
When I was little I was tested for gifted and talented, and I scored pretty high; now that's what defines me, I was "gifted" this understanding so why throw it away?!
Just I'm so much calmer when writing or drawing, or just researching stupid ideas me and friends have.
(Also I wanna add here, sorry to anyone who wants to read the next book, I'm so overwhelmed rn, I recently got dumped and lost 3 friends, so like I'm trying my best but creativity has been hard recently)

Confession numero cuatro
So my "family" consists of 5 guys (yes including my best friend), and me and my other best friend have this dream that one day the 6 of us will move in together and honestly I know it probably won't happen but...
a girl can dream right?

Anyways, thanks for coming to confession time, hope you had fun. Uh imma go to bed now cause I'm gonna get woken up real soon (alarms suck man). Also if you guys did enjoy this maybe suggest other things you want me to do or if you got questions for me, or about the book? I'm always happen to answer :) -Faith||