I can not believe this, "Zachary", I breathe out in disbelief.
His blue grey eyes bore into mine and I feel heat rush through my body once more. I touch my lips and bite my bottom lip from being nervous.
" If you keeping biting that lip Ima have to kiss you again Carter."
I look up and stop. I'm trying to wrap my head around what just happened. Zachary kissed me, and I wanted him to do it again. I liked it, shit!
Colton! Oh my gosh!
" Please let me know what's going on in that head of yours. I can never figure it out."
"I ummm... um, well. I mean you kissed me! " I step towards him angry now.
He steps closer to me and I take a step back, " But you liked it. Didn't you?"
I back away again " I have a boyfriend Zachary!"
He closes me against the wall as I continue on "How dare you!" He leans into me presses his lips to mine once more and I sigh kissing him back. Everything in my mind going away.
He picks me up and when the kiss broke I realized what I was doing.
I wiggle out his touch and put a good distance between us and tell him he can't ever do that again before I walk away.
I enter the den and see Colton standing talking to someone. Guilt floods through me. He looks my way and has this look on his face. Does he know?
He motions me towards him and we walk into my room. Something's telling me this isn't going to be good.
He's quiet for a while and I place my hand on his arm and he turns and kisses me. I wrap my arms around his neck and can't help but think of Zachary.
I pull away out of his embrace and ask "Whats the matter? Why are you acting so strange?"
He's quiet and sighs. "Carter, I think I may love you." He looks up once saying this and I'm like stone.
But I don't love him. It's still soon for me and I.... I know I don't love him. What am I going to do? What do I say?
"Carter, please say something", he whispers. I look away. "Carter, do you not....You don't love me."
I look back at him and see he does look quite hurt. "Colton. I'm, I just. I don't know. It's all to soon, for me at least. I do care for you, a lot, but I'm sorry to say that I don't love you the way you love me."
He nods his head, takes a deep breath and asks "Does this mean your going to leave me now?"
"Do I have too? Like am I suppose to?"
"Well some people do end up leaving when put in this situation..."
I don't wanna break up with him. so I shake my head "no" as in I'm not going to leave him. Now what's stuck on my mind is if I should tell him about Zachary. I don't know how he'd respond. I'm sure he wouldn't be to happy. He'd be angry and it may cause problems... Maybe I shouldn't tell him. it's not like I did it intentionally nor will it happen again.
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