After school Auden calls me to go over to her house. So that's where I'm heading now, my head all jumbled up with things that seem impossible. I wish dad was here, I know he'd help me figure out everything. Turning the volume dial up, " Crazy in Love" by Beyonce comes on. I begin to sing aloud to it and dancing, little did I know that Zachary and Drake are in the car next to me at the red light before Audens road.
Zachary is shaking his head smiling while Drake is laughing. I feel a wave of embarrassment wash over me as I hurry and turn left on Pear Street. I quickly get out my car and run up to Audens room. I close her door and press my head against it.
"What's up with you?" I hear my best friend ask. I open my eyes groan as I walk and plop down on her fluffy bed. "Zachary saw me crazy dancing and singing at the redlight", I answer. except it came out more of mumbling being my face is in the pillow.
"Repeat?"
"Zachary and Drake saw me dancing and signing at the red light. Auden it was so embarrassing. " She just looks at me with an arched eyebrow and shakes her head.
"Hey why was Drake with Zachary anyways?" I lift my head to look at her.
Rolling her eyes, "Gosh Carter, sometimes you really are oblivious to things, Drake and he are friends." Damn, where have I been?
Getting up I pace around the room. This year has not been my year. And why am I getting all clustered about about Zach?
"You like him, stupid!"
I turn, "Was I thinking aloud again?" She nods in response. "Carter, I know you don't want to like Zach, but you do. You just haven't admitted it to yourself yet. Everyone can see that. And I think he likes you, as well."
I take this in as I sit in her solar chair. I spin around in it a few times. Is she right. Do I think he's good looking? Hell yes. Do I care about his well being? Yes. Do I get jealous of the thought of him with a girl? For some reason....yes. Did I like the way his kiss felt? Another hell yes. Do I enjoy his company? I really do, he's funny.
I picture me and him together and I warm at the thought. "Well shit, I think you're right."
She gives me her "Duh" look and answers her ringing phone. "Hey baby!"
"Yeah, ya'll can come over."
"Okay! Love you too", she walks into her bathroom for a few minutes. Coming out I can see she had fixed her hair in a cute bump high pony tail, glossed her lips, and put on a little perfume.
Within ten minutes, Drake walks in. Only he isn't alone, Zachary is with him. Well damn, I don't know how to act now. I whip out my phone and go on Instagram to keep myself looking busied. But that doesn't stop a thing.
Zachary comes sits on my lap. Grinning ear to ear he says, "Hey, C."
"Um..Hi Zach." I give him a shy smile and feel Audens eyes on us.
"What cha doing?"
I show him my phone and go back to scrolling. I feel him watching me. I peek up at him and he tilts his head. "You aren't very sociable today."
This makes me laugh. "Sociable? Who knew you're vocabulary was past a 5th grade level."
He places his hand over his heart, pretending to be hurt by this. But he laughs and grabs my hand. This is when I get silent. He watches me with a smirk. Is he playing a game? Cause if he is, this is one im not going to win. Looking at him smiling I realize-for sure- that I'm head over heels for this boy.
"Just kiss already" Drake yells. Zachary throws something at him. Feeling myself blushing I push him off me and walk outside to the pool. I slip my orange flip flops off and stick my feet in the water, it feels nice in the heat of the day. Hearing the back door shut, I see Zach walking towards me. I slip my shirt off and hurry and jump on the pool. Counting my laps keeps my mind off everything. After while I ran out of breath and pop my head above the water.
Zachary is sitting on the ledge, shirtless, great. He looks so damn good: tan skin, toned body, his hair spiked up with gel and his blue eyes sparkling. It's enough to take my breathe away. Biting my lower lip I turn away. "Carter."
I freeze. His voice husky, low, different. Turning around, he's in the pool, not only that, but he's also right in front of me. His lips crash against mine. Urgent. I wrap my arms around his neck and fist my hands in his hair. Pulling us under water he smiles and kisses me again, then rising above water he leans down and lifts me, I wrap my legs around his waist. All I can think about is him. How soft his lips feel, how he tastes, how this makes me feel. I met his urgency and nibble on his lip causing his grip on me to tighten.
He pulls away, and I feel a pang of loss wave trough me. We are both panting, until he gets out the water and walks away. Leaving me utterly confused.
Will this ever be more than just a kiss and walk away? I feel used in a way. Frustrated, I pull my self out and head back inside. I tell Auden I'm leaving, which I'm sure she's happy about having Drake there.
There's a note on my seat when I get in my new blue 2013 Nissan.
"C. We seriously need to talk. Maybe it'll clear things up. Meet me at the house, I'll be in my room."
I don't have to try to figure out who it is, its Zachary. Just then, my phone goes off.
"What?" I answer.
"I just wanted to apologize one more time for what I did to you. For everything I did to you. I love you, Carter."
