All this is too much. Lately all I can think about it Zachary. Even when I am with Colton. I can't keep doing this to him. But it's not like k plan on it, he just does it. And I don't want to break up with Colton.
"Hey C, what do you want to order to eat? I'm about to call a restaurant." Colton asks.
We are at his house, where I've slept the past two nights since that incident with Zach. I look up and smile when I see he's smiling at me. There's something about him that makes him adorable and sexy at the same time.
"Pizza?" I reply. He nods his head and dials the number and makes the order. Twenty minutes later it's hear.
While he goes and pays I go Pop in a movie that we rented. At the end of the night, when we are lying in bed he turns to me and says "I love you."
I feel a pang of guilt hit me in my chest.
I look up at the ceiling and try to calm all the thoughts and feelings rushing through me. I mean, I enjoy myself with him, he makes me happy, but I don't love him. I know I don't, but I do care for him alot.
"Hey, you don't have to say it back. I know your not ready. It's okay."
I nod my head and he kisses me goodnight and I turn and drift to sleep.
..........
I wake up from one of our phones buzzing on the night stand. I see its Colton's and turn a bit and see he is sleeping. I unlock it and my heart stops as i read the text message.
* Aye son, did you get her to have sex with you yet?! Cmon man, your gonna loose the bet!*
I look at the name and see its Ethan Waver another football player.
I place his phone back down on the nightstand with shaky hands. I grab mine, slowly get out the bed and call Auden once I'm in the bathroom.
"Are you crazy?! It's 3 am" My best friend says when she answers.
"Auden..." was all I could manage out.
She gasps "Carter what's wrong. You never cry."
"Can I come sleep?"
"Of course! I'll go leave the door unlocked. Just be quiet when your coming upstairs."
I cut the call, grab my light blue luggage and leave. But before I could get in my car Colton is running and stopping me.
"Where you going?"
"Leave me alone Colton. We are done!" My voice breaks and I start crying.
"What? Carter? What's going on?" He asks putting his hand on my cheek. I slap it away and say "What?! Your worried your gonna loose your bet now?"
His eyes widen and says "Carter no, it's not like that."
"Don't lie to me! I saw the damn fucking message! How could you? I was so close to falling. Good thing I hadn't yet Huh."
"Okay, yes at first the some of the guys were saying how no one could get you. That you didn't talk to anyone and never dated anyone. They were curious as to why, then they said that. It was dumb. Your an amazing girl. And I really do care about you..."
I laugh "Way to put on a show. Why should I believe you? You know what just don't answer that, goodbye."
And before he could say anything else I slammed my door shut and speed off.
My phone begins to ring and I see its my mom, I got to grab it but it slides off the seat. Fuck. I lean down to get it next thing I know I see headlights coming right at me and I'm flipping and Im screaming.
............
"Hello? Ma'am can you hear me?" I barely hear someone say. I try to speak but I start coughing and take something metallic in my mouth. My head rolls to the side and I see a blurry police officer. He shines a light in my face I blink and he says into his scanner "Yeah we are gonna need paramedics here. And yes one is dead."
Dead?!
