1D/5SOS Imagines

tummy pains (luke)

Here I was again, my upset stomach causing me to hurl all my food into the porcelain toilet. It's been happening off and on for the last few weeks. I hadn't been very confident in my body at all lately so I decided I was going to change that. It hadn't happened often only whenever Luke my boyfriend hadn't been around. I didn't realize today that was all about to change.

"(y/n) baby? You okay?" heard Luke knock on the door and my blood ran cold. I quickly rinsed my mouth with water and wiped my mouth off on the towel opening the door. "Yeah I'm fine." I said putting on a fake smile. "Babe, you look really pale are you sure your okay?" he asked cupping my cheek.

"Yes Lukey, I promise." I said wrapping my small and fragile arms around his wide torso, hugging him tight laying my head on his chest. "I'm going to get ready for bed." I said pulling away and leaning up to kiss his cheek. "Alright I'll be in there in a minute." he grinned his adorable little dimple showing.

I walked away from him going into our room around the corner. I shrugged off my sweat pants leaving me in Luke's very large shirt that swallowed my body. I brushed my teeth and hair then climbed in under the heavy duvet bringing it up to my chin. As Luke walked in he smiled at me as walked over to me. "You're the most adorable thing I've seen in my life." he chuckled leaning down and kissing my forehead.

I closed my eyes at the simple contact. He walked over to the dresser pulling out his phone and setting it down. He pulled off his shirt and jeans his back to me and he was just in his ninja turtle boxers. I giggled to myself because I had the exact same ones on. As he walked over to the bed sliding in behind me, he wrapped his long arms around my now shrinking waist and pulled me tight.

We were silent for a bit just enjoying the moment before Luke interrupted the peace. "Have you lost weight babe? You feel smaller than you did a few weeks ago." I froze for a second before shrugging my shoulders and turning around in his arms. I snuggled deep into his broad shoulders leaving a delicate kiss on his collar bones.

We laid there longer and I was slowly falling asleep when he interrupted my sleep again. "Babe?" I felt his bare chest vibrate. "Hmm?" I hummed along in his chest. "How long has it been going on?" he questioned. My blood ran cold, he knew, he knows what I have been doing, he's going to leave me, I thought to myself. "How long has what been going on?" I questioned to reassure and find out if he was actually talking about what I think he was.

"You know what." he said sternly his piercing blue eyes looking into mine and his lip began to tremble. I looked down, ashamed and embarrassed that he knew. My eyes began to well up tears threatening to run over the edge. He hooked his finger under my chin forcing me gently to look up at him. "How long (y/n/n)?" he whispered softly.

"A month." I said pushing myself away from his body and turning around. I laid there for a while letting silent tears roll down my cheeks and Luke never said a word. Right before I was about to get up and just go sleep in the guest bedroom I heard Luke let out a whimper. I turned around to look at him and he had tears rolling down his cheeks looking up at the ceiling.

I scooted closer but not as close as before and wiped his tears away. "Why baby? Why?" he sobbed wrapping his arms around my torso laying his head on my belly. "Can't you see? I'm not pretty. Fat is covering every inch of my skin and whenever I'm in the bathroom it haunts me, all I can do is stare at it and let the horrible thoughts consume my brain. I only meant for it to happen a couple of times but then I could stop." I cried running my fingers through his blonde now messy hair. Luke sat up looking at me his arms wrapped all the way around me and his body laying between my short legs.

He crawled a little closer before stopping a few inches away from my face. He looked at me for a minute before leaning in and crashing his lips to mine. The kiss full of passion and need but it was still soft and gently, our emotions getting the best of us. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him down lower deepening the kiss.

He pulled away slowly both of us breathless and he sat up standing off the bed. "Come here." he whispered sticking his hand out for me to take. I sat up and took it and he pulled me over to my full body mirror. He turned me to face him instead of the mirror so I just gazed up at him. He rested his hands on the hem of my shirt pulling it up to my waist. He glanced at me before looking down at the shirt and pulling it over the top of my head.

I looked down ashamed of how my body looked, fat, disgusting, I was a grotesque human being. He pulled my chin up for me to make eye contact with him and he leaned down and softly kisses my lips. "Turn around for me." he whispered against my lips and I felt worry flash across my face.

He placed his hands on my hips giving them a gentle squeeze slowly turning me around. I stood there in front of the mirror not daring to look at my body. "Baby, you are so beautiful." he said keeping his hands placed on my hips. "No, you're not stick skinny, but that's not important. You have curves in all the right places and I can never get enough of that. Every night I have to control my self from not ripping off whatever you're wearing and making love to you." he paused slowly bending his knees and balancing on his feet. "I love every single part of you."

"Your legs.." he said running his hands up both sides of my calves and stopping at my mid thigh.

"Your thighs.." he said pressing his lips to the top side part of my right thigh then doing the same to my left and I felt my tears burning at the rim my vision becoming blurry.

"Your bum.." he said smirking and kissing both sides. I stifled a giggle. He turned me so I was sideways in the mirror.

"I absolutely adore your tummy and sides." he said peppering kisses all along my tummy then faced me back towards the mirror and kissing up my hips. He stood up completely taking a hold of my hand.

"I love how your hands fit perfectly into mine, and how your arms don't look muscular but you got a mean swing." he chuckled kissing from my finger tips up my arm to the top of my shoulder. By now I was crying and laughing at the same time so overwhelmed by the different emotions in this room.

He wrapped his arms tight around my waist pulling me close then letting go softly. He pushed my hair over to my left shoulder and kissed his way up from my neck to my ear before whispering,"You're my world, so if you hurt, I hurt, you cry, I cry, you starve, so do I." That's when I just lost it.

I turned around wrapping my arms around his kissing him with every ounce of my body. He pulled my legs up and I wrapped them around his waist. Some people may have thought it would've been odd to be crying and kissing at the same time, but I thought of it as a beautiful moment that I will never forget. Luke laid himself back on the bed and i straddled his waist bending down to kiss him once more.

After I pulled away I rested my forehead on his. "I love you so much and I can't stand to see you do this to yourself. You're my world and I honestly couldn't imagine my life without you. I know this is random, but I'm positive this is what I want and I know we are laying here in our ninja turtle underwear but that's okay. So what I'm getting at is (y/f/n) would you do me the honor of becoming my wife? I don't have a ring or anything yet but-"

"-Yes." I interrupted him. "Yes.. Yes.. Yes.. Yes.. Yes." I said peppering kisses all over his face. I cupped his cheeks in my hand and got close enough to where our lips were just grazing each other's. "I love you so much."

"I love you so much more. So please, don't do this anymore because I love your curves. I don't want you to not feel beautiful because you're the most beautiful human being I've ever laid eyes on. I'm not saying we have to rush the process, yes I know it will take baby steps, but that's all I'm asking for." he said kissing me softly and shifting our bodies back under the duvet.

"You are the best thing I could ever ask for." I whispered snuggling into him. "I love you baby girl, so much." and with that I fell asleep finally feeling just an ounce of confidence for the first time in weeks.

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long update yeah!!! I hope you guys like it im honestly so proud of this myself. comment vote!!

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-Kenna xx