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Part 11.9

Michaela P.O.V.
So last night I stayed with my godmommy until the next day when it was time for another session with Whitney. I've been going back and forth all night whether I can face her and here I am about to face her again. I walked into waiting area with my godmother behind me. I guess she wanted to make sure I stayed and made it to my destination. She checked me and then sat next to me.

"The nurse said Whitney is already back there and they will call you back in a minute." She said to me.

"What if I can't do it right. I don't think I can be calm and say all of what I need to say." I told godmommy.

"Then you come back the next and the next until you said what you can." She said. "And I staying the whole session out here. No more running. You too young to runaway from your problems. I don't know where you got that from but it stops with you." She finished. The doctor Ms. Jackie came out and shook my godmommy's hand.

"Thank you Ms. Ross for bringing her back. Will you be out here the whole session?" She asked her.

"You're welcome and yes. I want to be her support to see this through." She said back to Ms. Jackie.

"Great. We are ready for you Michaela if you are." Ms. Jackie said going back to the door waiting on me with it held open.

"You not leaving me right?" I asked my godmommy.

"No baby I will right here when you get done waiting on you." She said. I hugged her then went to where Ms. Jackie was waiting on me. As we walked the hallway leading to her office it felt a lot longer than yesterday. She opened her office door for me and I ent inside. I saw Whitney on the couch and I saw a beanbag in a corner far enough from her. I sat there.

"I'm glad the both you could come back today. I know the hardest part is to come back." Ms. Jackie said. "Yesterday we ended with Michaela so Whitney would you like to start off today."

"I just wish that day didn't happen. Michaela there is not a day that goes by that I don't regret my decisions with you and how much time I've lost. I love you so much it hurts. And I don't ever want you to fill the need to hurt yourself." Whitney spoke.

"Michaela is there anything else you would like to say to your mother?" Ms.Jackie asked.

"No." I said folding my arms.

"I think there is much being unsaid but I don't want to push you so maybe later." Maybe. Jackie says. "How about let's talk about when was the last time things were great between you both."

"Her birthday was a good day for us." Whitney said.

"How so?" Ms. Jackie asked.

"I think it had to do with her older sister being their but she opened up a little and we got her hair down and just pampered her that day. She seemed to enjoy it." Whitney said.

"Okay. Michaela would you say you and your sister have a good relationship?" She asked.

"I think we used to. Not anymore." I told her.

"Why not?" She asked.

"Found out she was the favorite. But it's okay." I said.

"Why you do think that? We have no favorites at our house. You know that Mya" Whitney said.

"Do I Whitney." I said. She turned her face at me.

"You know something little girl from the day I made that grave mistake I have been living with it. I have had nightmares about what was happening you. Yes I slipped up while you were gone and fell into harder times with drugs and alcohol but I have never played favoritism." She said.

"i knew you were going to say that. But it's okay. I came to terms with what it is. I remember being home with my dad and seeing you on the tv with Bobbi Kristina singing to her and I just though well maybe if it really really good she will take me with her next time, then I thought well maybe if I tell her how much I love her she will next week. But it never came. My dad made sure I felt included when it came to everything I did. And I don't know if this between us can be fixed but I do know it won't be overnight." I told her.

"Do you think you are willing to fix the relationship between your mother and you?" Me. Jackie said.

"No I think I am willing to fix the relationship between Whitney and I. I don't think she should have the title of being my mother." I said. Whitney made a dramatic huff and started to bawl crying.

"Okay why don't we take a break then come back when you both have calm down. You know what I want to give you ladies some homework. I want you do both find something that you share alike. Not DNA but maybe a hobby or hidden talent. Then I want you guys to explore that. But all your emotions into it and just learn from one another. I will see you guys back next week." She said. I got up and headed out the door. I saw my godmommy sitting in the lobby she patted the seat next to her.

"So you want to tell me how it went?" She asked. I shrugged.

"Fine. Can we go now?" I asked.

"When does she want to see you again?" She asked.

"We are due back here next week on Monday, she gave us something to do together. Find something we share alike like a hobby or hidden talent. I think she should stay with me. I'm sure we can bond over this time." Whitney said.

"That's not gonna happen. I have a lot going on." I told her.

"And what exactly is that... Exactly how about I drop her off tomorrow morning. Y'all can start as what I hear is bonding. See you tomorrow Whitney." Godmommy got up and I followed her to the waiting car.

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Just wanted to update it's been so long. Not sure which direction I'm heading with it.