Unknown Child

Part 12

Michala p.o.v
Here we are back at this therapist room in the hotel and honestly I had a deep conversation with my family being my older cousins and let just say I can see everyone's point of view but I'm still going to be a bit reserved when it comes to Whitney.

"So what wants to start us off today?" The therapist asked. I wonder if she ever gets tired of asking the same question at the start of her sessions.

"I would like to start off with an apology. Mya I'm sorry for every hurt I have caused. And I truly do love you."  Said Whitney.

"Can I ask a question" I asked openly lookin at the therapist.

"I think we all would be ears to that" she answered.

"When I was born why did you lie to everyone and tell them I was dead? That question has been haunting me since I read it online." I asked.

"I had an affair with your dad. Bobby and I weren't doing well after I had Krissy and your dad was always there whether it be we working on music together or just That person I confine in. He was just present and then when you came. Krissy was only a year and Bobby talked about my image when he found out I was pregnant with you. I guess I just took the easy way out." She answered.

"Thank you. Thank you for not lying to me. That's the best thing you could ever do is to not lie. So thank you." I said.

"I never meant to hurt you." She said.

"But you did. When I was younger why were you so against me going to visit my dad. I remember it being a while before I got to see him again while you were on tour and you took me to granny's house. I never understood why I just couldn't go with him."
I told her.

"I didn't want you to like him more than me. I knew I couldn't take you along like I could with Krissy around the world. But I also knew that if I left you with him that meant you would spend more time with him and develop a better relationship with him than me and I didn't want that to happen." She said.

"Do you ever hear yourself talk or think about stuff before you do it? I mean you sound so messed up in the head I don't know how the hell you make it everyday." I said getting aggravated with her.

"Wait now Mya lets she is still your mother." The therapist said.

"Are we even in the same room? A mother doesn't treat her kid this way. A kid she claims to love and I don't know how this can be fixed." I said. 

"Don't say that Michaela this May take time but it will be fixed. Now Whitney do you love your daughter?" The therapist Doctor Jackie asked.

"With all my heart." Answer Whitney. From the corner of my eye I could see her staring at me and wiping her face.

"Mya what about you. Do you love your mom?" She asked me. I looked over at her then at Whitney.

"I really don't know" I answered truthfully. Whitney let out a cry.

"And that's okay. It's a start. Now I think it's best if you guys start from the beginning. I think it would do you guys some good to live together, I know we talked yesterday about finding some interest but I think you guys should really live in the same home that way you can't run from one another." She said. And just like that I wanted to cry. The last time I lived with this lady she sold me for drugs. I don't know how I will be able to sleep under the same roof as her.

"I know this all may seem scary for you Mya but your mom has really been making some strides. Why don't you tell her something that would make her more comfortable Whitney." She said.

"I'm 90 days clean Mya. I got my chip here so I could prove it to you. And Krissy still stays at home I'm sure you know that. And my godson Nick does too and my family comes over a lot to check on things." Whitney said.

"What do you say Mya. Let us know what your feeling." Doctors Jackie said.

"I'm scared. Im scared that she is going to go back to drugs and sell me again in my sleep." I said exhaling.

"And you have every right to be afraid but you can't let the past dictate your future." Doctor Jackie said. Soon it was just Whitney and Doctor Jackie talking while I zoned out. I'm suppose to move from Switzerland to Atlanta. I would have rather stayed close to my brothers and sister.