Unknown Child

Part 11.8

Michaela
I ran like I was in track from the hotel. I just needed to clear my mind. I went end up walking around Beverly Hills with only a phone, gym shorts and a jacket on. I got a lot off of my chest but I don't think I can be right ever again with my mother. I saw a pizza place not far so I stop in there and got a booth and asked for water of course. Moment later I felt my phone vibrate so I sat it on the table and just looked at it. It's during the day and summer so the pizza place was pretty much empty. I saw Whitney called about 3 times of course then my grandmother Katherine and Granny Cissy. I didn't feel like Speaking to any of them. I then saw my Godmom Diana calling too I knew she was never going to stop calling until I answered.

"..." I just held the phone when I finally picked up.

"Mya I know your there. Tell me where you are and I will come to you please hunny." She said.

"I really messed up godmommy." I told her.

"No baby you didn't. You could never mess up with me please baby. Just tell godmommy where you are I will come get you." My godmother said.

"No because if I tell you then she will come." I said.

"No she won't I promise you she won't. Please My KK. I need to know where you are." She said. I hung up and after thinking a few seconds later I texted her the address to the pizza place. I ordered a slice of pizza and after 30 minutes of siting around I heard a commotion like everyone gasping. I didn't need to look up to know who it was. I felt her presence and then smelled her perfume.

"Kk." She said sitting down. I wiped some falling tears and didn't really acknowledge her.

"I showed her my scars and how I felt." I told her.

"Oh hunny. But why. Why have you been doing that. Why not call someone. You have all these people around you who love you." She said.

"You mean all the people who helped hide my existence. How do I know they really love me when they do that. I'm tired of feeling like a nobody. No one wants to claim me. My own mother doesn't even claim me. She sold me. And you all walk around like it's some unwritten rule to not talk about. How do I know you guys are for me." I told her.

"Come on I think it's some place you need to be." She told me standing up and taking my hand. We went out to the car she had and she whispered to the driver something. Then she had me lean against her rubbing her hands through my hair. I ended up falling asleep that way. That is until she shooked me awake. "Kk we are here." She whispered in my ear. I stretched my arms while waking up and rubbed my eyes.

"Where are we? " I asked looking at a steel door with overgrown grass on the other side of it. She seemed to have a remote to the gate and it opened. It looked familiar but I could tell anything by the grass growing.

"You remember yet?" She asked.

"It seems familiar but I can't remember. Why can't I remember I want to so bad." I said.

"It's your home baby. This is Neverland." She said.

"This is Neverland. What happened?"I asked

"I kept the payments up and paid the property taxes on the place to give it to you. I want you to sit here and reflect on what you remember, on what your father wanted you to gain from this land and what you wish to become. Can you do that for me?" She asked.

"Of course." I told her. I got out the car on my own. And just spun around in a circle taking it all in. This was my favorite place up to a year and a half at when he died. I'm sad that I left when he died and never returned. The grass was poorly overgrown. Our garden of flowers were not longer there. From this spot I should be able to see the Ferris wheel and I can not. Then I thought about all of my animals. So I run to the stables to my horse. Cinnamon is her name. She is no longer here. Neither is Nutmeg or Paprika. I walked back toward the house and see that the door is cracked. When I walk in my dad studio room it empty. I go in the soundboard room and see our initials still sketched on the floor. This is where I spent some of my time when I wasn't in the piano room. I would listen to my dad record. Have meetings he would let me go everywhere with him to let me feel present he just didn't explain who I was to anyone and I was okay with that I felt he wasn't ashamed of me.

I went back to my god mom to see her leaving on the car talking on the phone.

"No I am not going to force her to come back. When she is ready she will come to you. Well Whitney if you get your shit together maybe she would want to come to you.... okay I will let her know when the next session is." The she hung up.

"Hey KK ready?" She asked me.

"I'm ready to face her again." I told her.

"You sure. You can take more time." She told me.

"Im ready godmother. My daddy wouldn't want me to be like this." I told her going in for a hug.

"I love you Kk and I know your daddy is smiling on you. Watching you grow. Just promise me you want do that anymore. He would be so hurt and so am I okay?" She said. I nodded and accepted what she was saying.