Remember 2

Chapter 9

hey loves xxx I want to say that this chapter goes back and forth between Sam and Hazel POVS so pay attention! enjoy ; )

{P.S: That's Carrington and Sam in the picture above!}

{P.P.S I freaking LOVE her and she is my fave so ;)}

Sam POV

"Ow! Easy!" Carrington gripped my wrist as she dragged me upstairs, we went into Kians' bedroom and she slammed the door.

"Sam Pottorff, you better have a cat!" She glared at me and pointed at my slit wrists and scars. "I-I..."

"I just want to know why, Sam. This is complete bullshit and you promised you would never." Carrington must be upset, she never curses.

"I'm just depressed. Trevor's in a coma at the hospital, Hazel almost died of cancer... It's hard." I said, tears welded up in my eyes as I sat on the bed.

She sighed and came over, wrapping her arms around me and I let a tear or two fall. "Why is this life so hard?" I whispered and she leaned backwards on the bed. I laid my head on her stomach and wrapped my arms around her waist.

Carrington twisted the back of my hair, she always knew it calmed me down. "It's not hard unless you make it hard on yourself, Sam. You have an amazing girlfriend and you just hurt her by not admitting you're... Suicidal."

"She would leave me." I whispered and she chuckled. "She is too nice to leave you, Sam. Just tell her."

"I will on my own time." I argued and she sighed again. "Just try to stop, Sam. Everyone loves you."

"But the hate I get, it's too much, Carrington."

"Stop, the haters don't matter. You're 19, go and find someone to love and marry."

"I love Hazel." I smiled slightly and looked up at her. "You should marry her." My breath hitched at her words and I bit my lip ring, "I'll see about that, we're a little young." I chuckled, trying to lighten the mood and she sat up.

"Love doesn't have an age." She smirked and I nodded. That's true, I thought.

"Now, stop this cutting crap and be happy. Alright?" She kissed my cheek lightly and I nodded. She walked out of room.

I never promised

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Hazel POV

"I just don't know what to do, Dad." I sighed looking at his gravestone, Brent's was right next to it and I slightly smiled.

"I dont know what Sam is hiding, but I will find out soon, right? He loves me, Daddy, and I love him. I thought we told each other everything, like Brent and I did." I smiled at Brent's headstone and started to pick at the grass.

"Gosh, Daddy, why did you have to die? I wish you could see my wedding, the birth of your grandchildren, their first steps, take them fishing and teach them later how to shoot that damn bebe gun." I chuckled and looked over at Brent's headstone.

"You better be watching Trev, don't let him do anything stupid." I smiled and laid down the flowers in front of their headstones. "I love you two. Goodbye." I waved to the headstones and sighed.

I walked and got in the car, starting it up and leaving the cemetery as quickly as possible.

Sam POV

"Shit!" I shouted as I cut deeper, no one was home so I can yell as loud as I wanted to. I let out an uncontrollable sob as I cried on the bathroom floor, the blood on my wrists now on my tank top.

You dumb shit, what've you become?

Hazel will leave you!

Good luck surviving when Trevor dies!

"No he won't die." I said aloud, arguing with my thoughts.

If he dies, you will!

Hazel wants someone better, not someone with scars!

I cried again, why was I thinking all these things? I was never like this. Never. I wiped my eyes and stood up, looking in the mirror at my ruffled hair and bloody tank top.

I smiled slightly, a small spark in my eyes showed. Maybe I have hope... I washed off my wrists and took off my shirt, I heard the bathroom door open and gasped.

"Sam we need-what're you doing?" Hazel asked and I wiped off my arms and shrugged. "I just took a shower." Nice job, Sam, now you're lying to your girlfriend!

"Oh, well... I think we need to talk." Hazel sighed and I prayed it wouldn't be about my secret, also known as cutting. I quickly put my hands and arms behind my back.

"O-okay, can I get dressed? Put on a new shirt?" She smiled slightly and nodded, she walked in and lightly kissed my cheek before walking away and to the living room.

I ran into my room and threw on a crewneck, covering up my arms and exhaled. I fixed my sweatpants and walked out to the living room and sat on the couch next to Hazel.

"Go ahead." I said smiling and she fiddled with her fingers before looking up at me.

"I think I need to tell you about Brent."

I know you hate me! Cliffhanger and it was a short chapter! School is getting more challenging so I need to focus on school work and such, I'll still write though! xxx