The story of my life

Jamie and cas

I haven't seen Cas since I ran away even tho I prayed to him he never responded I was starting to miss me best friend but he clearly didn't miss me

"Dean" I said walking out of my room
"Yes" he yelled from the kitchen
"I think I am going to run to the store if that's okay" I yelled back

Before I could say anything else Sam popped around the corner
"Can I go" he asked standing in his towel
"Yeah but only if you put some cloths on first"I laughed
"Sutter do you want to go with mommy to the store"I asked walking over to the couch to sit with him
"Yeah can dawn come to"he asked
"Yes baby dawn can come to if her mommy don't care" I said rubbing his head and heading to the kitchen

When I walked in I seen Cas
"Ca—" and then he disappeared
"Me Sam and Sutter and Dawn are going to the store" before he could say anything about Cas I walked out of the room
"And the kids want to go to the park so I will be home in a hour or two" I said getting Sutter and dawn ready

Angel was sick and we didn't want to do anything and Annie was asleep in mine and deans bed

I walked in my sisters room letting her know me and Sam where taking the big kids to the park so it would just be her, Dean and Annie at home and then I walked in the living room and picked up the kids and walked out to the car and buckled them up waiting on Sam

When Sam finally made I to the car I told him that we where going to take the kids to the park and he said okay and off we went

When we got to the park we let Sutter and Dawn go slide while me and Sam sat and talked

"Sam" I said
"Yeah"
"Is there something wrong with me"
"What no why would you say that"
"Because Cas is suppose to be one of my best friends and he said I am one of the only women he has feelings for and ever since I got back he doesn't have anything to do with me" I said starting to tear up
"Hey there isn't anything wrong with you okay nothing what so ever there is something wrong with him if he dosent want anything to do with you you are such a amazing person"Sam said hugging me and rubbing my back
"Maybe he just needs some time" said Sam

We both got up and went and played with the kids

Sutter couldn't say uncle right so he says unca

"Unca Sam unca Sam come push me" he said running to the zip line
"Okay little man I will be there in just a second" he said while sliding down the slide with dawn
"Aunt JJ Come slide with me " said Dawn
We both ran to each others kids and started playing and having fun

Finally we both got thirsty and went and sit on the bench and got some water a lady walked up to us
"What a cute married couple y'all are and beautiful kids" she said
"Your little boy looks just like you" she said looking at Sam

We both just looked at each other giggling

When we got home I walked in the room and picked Annie up and feed her and then hummed and sang her back to sleep
" so rockabye baby rockabye I'm gonna rock you rockabye baby don't you cry some body's got you" I sang to her and she fell fast asleep

I laid her down in Sutters old baby bed and dean walked in

"Did you have fun today" he asked
I didn't reply to him
"Hey I'm talking to you"he said trying to get me to reply I didnt care I pushed by him leaving him alone in the room with Annie
I walked into Sutter and dawns room we had put up a wall in between the beds towhere they had their own space I walked to Dawn's side
"It's time for your nap"I said helping her into the bed and kissing her head
"I love you aunt JJ" said Dawn
"And unca Dean too" she giggled
"We love you to sweetie" I said

I walked over to sutters side
"MOMMY" he was running over to me and hugging me
"I had so much fun with you and unca Sam today thanks for taking us to the park" he said smiling and hopping into his bed and covering up
"I am glad you had fun baby"I said kissing him on the head
"Have a good nap" I said kissing his head and walking out of their room

Dean was waiting on me to get out of the room

"Hey am I invisible here" he said waving his hands
I pushed by him not saying a word and I walked out of the house of course he followed
"Where are you going" he asked
"JAMIE WHERE ARE YOU GOING" he yelled
"I am leaving" I yelled out the window driving away

"Cas get down here now" I yelled

I was at a little pond I had found in the woods about a year ago I would come here just to think and he didn't answer

"Cas please" I whispered in between the tears flowing
"You called" said Cas behind me
"What the hell cas if you didn't want anything to do with me you didn't have took lead me on like I was nothing" I said bursting out into tears and flopping onto the ground
"What is wrong with me Cas am I not a good enough friend or person for you" I said trailing off into thought
"No Jamie it's nothing like that" he said sitting beside me
"You are my very best friend I just needed time to myself"he said putting his arm around me

"But You had enough time to stop by and see dean this morning when I have been back for about a week and you haven't had the time of day to stop by and say hey or I missed you glad to see your Okay I don't understand Cas the last time we talked you said I was one of the only humans you had feelings for and now you won't even talk to me" I said starting to back away from him

"Jamie you are my best friend and I love you unconditionally but I needed time you forget I was at the point where I couldn't help you I couldn't heal you I though you where going to die and seeing dean and Sam in that type of pain it killed me and then knowing I could lose my best friend it almost killed me" he said letting a tear run down his face
"I am sorry" he said

getting up and walking to me taking me in his arms and us standing there crying together
"Does dean know your here"he asked
"No me and him haven't talked since this morning why"I asked
"Because he is praying pretty loud and telling me to get my feathery ass to the cabin now" said with a smug look
" you better go" I said letting go of him
He leaned down and kissed me on the cheek.  " I love you and don't ever think different you are my best friend and nobody can change that" he said before disappearing

In the next chapter we will see what dean wanted to talk to Cas about so bad and we will see what happens when Jamie gets home...