The story of my life

The road home

Dean wanted to know when we could go see the family and I told him that he could I went ghost they thought I was dead so it was best if I didn't

"Jamie their family they will forgive you"dean said looking at me
"Dean you where gone I lost our baby I left them they think I am dead and I wish I was dead I went from being happily pregnant married with a happy family to losing two of my babies and my HUSBAND!!! For god sake I don't know what you don't understand about that I told Cas not to come back around me........ I told him I hated him and he was just trying to help....." I yelled
"Jamie you where going through a lot of stuff they will understand" he said grabbing my hand
"NO THEY WONT DEAN DO YOU GET IT I LEFT THEM ALONE I LEFT OUR BABIES AND OUT FAMILY ALONE OUR KIDS THOUGHT THEY LOST THEIR DADDY AND THEIR MOMMA AND A LITTLE SISTER THEIR GONNA HATE ME!" I screamed

Dean wouldn't look at me he just stared at my arms.. then I realized what he was staring at my scars...

"Dean stop" I said tucking my arms away
"You promised you promised me and your sister you wouldn't do it again!" He yelled
"yeah well that was before....before I lost two of the only reasons for my existence...THAT WAS BEFORE I LOST YOU AND LUCAS....." I screamed at the top of my lungs
"....Macie?" Dean questioned
"That was what I was gonna name her and I was gonna name our baby before that Lucas but I couldn't protect them just like I couldn't protect you....."
"Why didn't you tell me!?" He calmly asked
"Because you wasn't the one that had to hold your dead baby and had to deal with the fact that it was the second time you have had to hold your dead baby and on top of that this time you wasn't there to comfort me it was Cas and Cas only because I wouldn't let him tell anyone they think we are both dead for all Cas knows I am dead I don't dcheck in with him I don't pray to him I don't even answer his calls dean I am a ghost and he can't find me no one can I am surprised you did...." I said not making eye contact with him
"Jamie"
"Don't Dean just don't please" I said walking out on him

I left and I haven't been back in two days I was hoping he had already left to go see the family and I wasn't going back to see if he was still there.

"DAMON STEFAN I KNOW YOU CAN SMELL AND HEAR ME!" I yelled

"WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN!" Said Damon yelling at me
"I THOUGHT YOU WHERE DEAD i thought you where......" he hugged me
"I know I am sorry I didn't let you know I was okay but I couldn't I wasn't okay I lost dean and the baby I couldn't face anyone of you don't feel bad you know more than my sister and my own kids know" I said kissing his cheek
"Steffy" I said stepping away from Damon
"Jamie don't he isn't gonna come" Damon added
"What does he hate me that much now" I asked
"He uhh he is gone jamie...." he said sitting on the ground
"The day that we thought you died he killed himself" he said crying
"So I know a little bit of how you feel losing the love of your life and your brother or in your case your baby"
"H'Hes g'g'gone" I stuttered starting to cry
"I am sorry i would have let you know but I thought you where dead..." he said trailing off into thought
"But Jamie you need to go see your family I already got a call from dean asking about you that was about three or four days ago when he Well when he cans back from hell I told him last I had heard you where dead..." Damon said hugging me
"Look just call dean and let him know you are okay and then go... go see your kids Jamie they miss their mom you should have seen them after they lost both of their parents it was sad to see." He said letting go of me and helping me in the car
"Jamie I love you" he said leaning in the window and kissing my head
"I love you Damon" I said kissing his cheek
"Now go your ass home before I keep you for good" he cherped

(Phone call)
"Hello"
"Hi"
"Jamie!!!!"
"Yeah Cas it's me umm how are the kids and my sister and Sammy" I asked
"They are time they are just chilling at the house why is everything okay"he asked
"Yeah yeah Cas it's fine umm can you tell dean I am okay and I am taking a detour before I get back to him" I asked
"Yeah of course I can..... Jamie I missed you I wish you would have checked in with me more" he said
"I missed you to cas" I said before hanging up

I drove for what seemed like forever and I didn't know what I was going to say to my family but I knew it was going to be difficult

*Knock knock*

"I got it" I heard a voice yell
"Hey—"
I tried to say but I was cut off my two large arms wrapped around me it was Sutty
"Mom I thought you where dead we all did" he said into the crook of my neck
"I know I know Sutty momma is here now I am sorry I disappeared I just I couldn't stay" I said hugging him long and hard
"Sutter who is at the—"
"Hiya Sammy" I said looking at the 6'4 man standing before me
"JAMIE" he yelled scooping me up in his arms and before I knew it I was in the living room with Sutter Annie Cas and Sammy and his kids
"Mom I am sorry for what I said the last time I seen you I missed you so much I love you momma" she said running to my arms
"I love you to babygirl" I said
"Dad is he" said Sutter starting to tear up

Before I could say anything else there was another knock on the door and I told everyone I was going to my room

It was the same way I left it pictures of me and dean and the kids

My sister barged in the room

"What the hell" I spat
"YOU DINT GET TO SAY WHAT THE HELL" said angel hitting me in the face
"Calm down!" I said
"No you left me you left us you had no right" she said crying
"ANGEL I LOST MY BABY AND MY HUSBAND THE SAME DAY YOU THINK I WAS READY TO FACE MY FAMILY I HAVE LOST TWO BABYS IN THE PAST TWO YEARS IN THE SPAND OF 15 MONTS APART I WAS FALLING APART AND I WASNT GONNA MAKE YOU ALL SIT AROUND AND WATCH" I screamed
"I missed you" she said running into my arms
"I missed you more" I said hugging her
"I am sorry about dean hun" she said kissing my cheek
"He is back from hell" I said cold as ice
"He got back three days ago and we got into a big argument here is his number tell Sammy to give him a call and let him know I am home" I said crawling into my bed
"G'night" I said
"I LOVE YOU GUYS GOODNIGHT" I screamed to where everyone could here me
All I heard was mixed goodnights and I love yous

I wished dean was here but I know he will be soon