The story of my life

Telling the family

After our nap we woke up to the smell of pie
"Is that.." dean said sniffing the air
"PIE!" I yelled jumping out of bed
"Woah woah woah little miss thang be careful now your caring precious cargo in there" he said grabbing me and pulling me to him
"I...I know" I said pulling away I said grabbing the same box I gave dean and then walking into the living room
"HEY EVERYONE IN THE LIVING ROOM NOW!!" I demanded
"Okay now that all of you are in here I need one person to open this box" I said sitting it down on the table
"I'll do it" said dawn teaching and grabbing the box as everyone else watched her open it
"MOM!" Sutter said jumping up and hugged me
"Imma be a big brother AGAIN!" He said with a huge smile
"I am so happy for you" said angel Sammy and everyone else
"Thanks guys" said dean rubbing my belly
"So sister what do you think it is" said Sammy
"Well I want it to be a boy but I don't know yet what about you babe" I said looking at dean
"I want to have a little girl just like you" he said kissing me
"Then I will have three beautiful girls" he said looking to me and Annie
"And I want another boy to where I will have three handsome boys" I said kissing Sutter and dean on the cheek
"Mom me and dad are MEN" he said
"Oh my bad two handsome men and a beautiful baby boy" I said giggling and hugging Annie
"But I don't care what you are I will love you either way" I said rubbing my belly
"We all will" I said looking around the room

That night all we did was talk about how far along I was and when I found out and I told them about the....the miscarriage they where mad that I didn't tell them but they where understanding because if what it was like for me.

Annie hadn't really said anything since we announced that her and Sutter will have a new baby brother or sister

"Annie honey will you walk with me" I asked reaching for her hand and motioning dean to go on the porch
"Yeah mom" she said ignoring my hand and walking to the porch
"Sweetheart are you okay" I asked looking at her
"Yeah sweety I am a little worried you haven't said anything about the new baby is it okay" dean asked
"No it's not okay you never even told us you wanted another kid you never told us about your miscarriage  you didn't tell me nothing it's like I am not apart of this family Sutter gets all the attention or dawn and James But NEVER me it's like you don't like me" she said glancing back and forth between me and dean
"Cas is the only person there for me when I am going through something or I am being bullied which y'all wouldn't know anything about because y'all are always gone on a hunt or your kidnapped and dying or you get into a argument and split up...Cas is a better parent then both of you combined" she yelled storming off

All I could think of is what if our new little baby felt the same way when they got older what if he/she hates me as much as Annie does

"Hey don't listen to her she is just having a rough time okay she is use to being the baby and now she isn't gonna be anymore" dean said wrapping his arms around me and my belly
"Dean she is right I am a bad mom I haven't been there for her" I said starting to cry
"And I am about to bring this little one into the world and what if he hates me like she does"I said standing up and walking to the rail
"SHE won't" said dean
"I think it's a boy" I said looking at dean
"Well I want it to be a girl" he said kissing my forehead
"I am gonna go to my spot I will be home soon I love you" I said walking off the porch
"Do you want me to come?" Dean asked
"No I wanna go by myself we will be okay" I said looking down at my belly
"You better be I love you come home ASAP" he cheerped
"I will babe" I called out
"I LOVE YOU" he yelled
"I LOVE YOU TOO" I yelled back