The story of my life

Cas

I had to except the fact that dean was gone and there wasn't anything I could do to get him back not yet...

It seemed like it had been years he had been gone you would have figured i would have gotten use to being away from him but I had just got him back and now he was gone.

I woke up last night crying because I had a dream me and dean and Sutter and Annie where all back together having a big family dinner and he told me he loved me I woke up crying my eyes out and Damon was there within 2.5 seconds

I could tell it was hurting him seeing me like this but I couldn't stop thinking what would have happen if I would have told Cas to save dean instead of Sam

I will never tell Sammy that dean would still be alive if I would have just told Cas to save dean instead of Sammy but I couldn't let my sister live unhappy and sad for the rest of her life because I let Sammy die but she didn't see it happen she didn't see her husband die she didn't see her best friend die and then have to make the choice either save my sisters husband/my brother or my husband I didn't want to live in a world without him but I wasn't going to make my sister suffer towhere I could be happy I put her and Sammy first if there was any possibility that Sam wouldn't have made it I would have saved dean but I told Cas to take them instead of me and dean....
I miss him so much Cas said he might be able to bring dean back once he gets charged again but he doesn't know I am praying he can

Angels POV
I woke up and I was at home with Sam by my side I rolled over waking him up
"What happened" I said frantically
"Where is Jamie and dean" I asked
"Dean oh my god dean" Sammy said jumping up and grabbing his phone
"What What is it" I asked
"I might be wrong but last time I seen dean a demon stabbed him in the chest" he said looking terrified
"Sammy I don't remember that I must have blacked out" I said rubbing his face
"I am suppose to be dean" he said looking at me
"Hey don say that" I said hugging him
"No baby really I remember trying to run to dean and then a demon pulling a gun and shooting me" Sam said
"How am I alive" he said

"Me" said Cas
"You saved him" I asked
"Yes" Cas said quietly
" thanks Cas where is dean and Jamie" Sam asked
"Sam dean is dead and Jamie and deans body are at Damon's" Cas said starting to tear up
"What do you mean he is dead Cas go heal him" I said yelling
"I will as soon as I am strong enough" I he said hugging sam