The story of my life

The kiss"

I kissed Damon to make him stay in my life and I felt so bad I loved Damon but I am in love with Dean so I went out and got majorly drunk I knew I shouldn't have got that drunk but I didn't care I needed to get Damon off my mind and I needed to tell Dean what I did

Deans POV
"Angel would you just calm down Sam does not hate you"I said to her as she cried
"Then why is he never around anymore" she screamed
"Because he is hunting, it will be okay he will be home soon" I assured her
"Where is my sister" she said demanding to see Jamie
"She left for some her time" I said putting angel in bed
"It seems like we don't have husband/wives anymore" angel said

I knew Jamie missed me we had planned to try to have another baby but we never got the chance because it seems like all angel wants is me and I can tell it makes Jamie a little mad and I am not gonna lie I love seeing her when she is jealous

I put angel to bed and went to the kitchen and made me something to eat before I knew it I heard the front door open

"DEAN!" Yelled Jamie
"Hey baby" I said rounding the corner to see Jamie crying
"I AM SO SORRY" she screamed
"For What Baby you didn't do anything wrong" I said looking at her
"I had to I had to kiss him" she said falling out of the floor she reeked of whiskey and vodka
"Baby what are you talking about kids who" I said getting a little scared for her
"Damon I had to kiss him or he would have left for good this time" she said
"Dean I didn't want to kiss him because I am in love with you but he is my best friend and he said give him a reason to stay and I tried everything I could have thought of and he said it wasn't enough and then before I knew it we where kissing" she yelled
"Damon!?" I said
"I deserve to die for this" she said picking her drunken self up off the floor and running to the bedroom

When I got in our room I seen her sitting in the corner with my gun in her hand

"I can't believe I did this to you" she said
"But it's okay I won't be able to hurt you after I am gone" she said cocking the gun

"JAMIE BABY NO DONT DO THIS IR YOU WILL JUST HURT ME AGAIN WORSE THAN EVER JAMIE JUST PUT THE GUN DOWN" I said running towards her
"jamie please....please put the gun down it's okay I understand why you did it hell I haven't been the best husband I haven't hardly talked to you but please just put the gun down Jamie I need you here and everyone makes mistakes as long as you didn't sleep with him we are okay" I said reaching for the gun
"i didn't sleep with him" she said finally handing me the gun once I had it I unloaded it and slid it under the bed and running to her
"Dean I kissed him" she said sobbing into my chest
"It's okay baby I forgive you" I said
"Don't you can't just forgive me for everything dean yell at me scream do something" she yelled at me
"no it's okay I am not going to get mad at you for this but that blood sucker on the other hand" I said
"Dean you can't hurt him" she said looking at me
"I won't" I said looking at her
"I love you to much to hurt him but you are drunk so let's get you in bed" I replied trying to help her up
"Dean kiss me make this better please it hurts" she said grabbing my neck
"Jamie you know I love you right" I said leaning down and giving her a quick kiss
" I don't see why I am just a fuck up" she said sitting on the bed
"Jamie stop saying that okay I am not mad at you and I can't be you did it to keep him around because he has some sort of power over you that I will never understand but as long as you are in love with me and devote everything to us then I will be okay just don't make it a every day thing" I said crawling in bed with her
"Hey dean" Jamie said
"Yes baby" I asked
"I am scared to try again" she said
"Try What again" I asked
"To have another kid......what if I ruin this one two what if I miscarry again" she said
"Then we will figure it out we always have and nothing is going to change that." I explained

Before I could say anything else she was asleep in my arms