𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 * ˚ ✦ 𝑳. 𝑨𝑪𝑲𝑬𝑹𝑴𝑨𝑵

𝙎𝙀𝙑𝙀𝙉𝙏𝙀𝙀𝙉

【 S E V E N T E E N 】

𝗖𝗔𝗣𝗧𝗔𝗜𝗡 [ 𝗟𝗘𝗩𝗜 𝗔𝗖𝗞𝗘𝗥𝗠𝗔𝗡 ]

「 flashback 」

Y/N's POV

"Y/N, Levi, cut if off!"

"Stay out of this, Hanji idiot. Stay out of this."

Levi shoot a killer look at Hanji before taking a tight grip on my arm and even though i tried to free myself, to no avail, i can't. he's too strong for me.

"Let's talk somewhere private, Y/N before I couldn't control myself anymore."

then he dragged me out of the meeting hall without me noticing his tears forming in his eyes. i fidgeted from his grip but it is still too tight. he took me in his office before slamming the door off and finally, letting me go. my heart is beating so fast, not because i'm scared but because Levi looked so out of his character and he is really mad.

it feels like any minute, he will emit fire from his mouth and burn the whole place down. and the other factor that makes my heart beat faster is the fact that we're just alone together. i know that this is not the first time that we're alone but today is different. i stare at his face before i saw his tears falling down his face. 

"L-Levi...you're cryi—"

"You're not dying! You get it?! We will go out of that fucking walls but we will come back here safe! You heard me!"

is he really saying that? are those words true? am i really talking to Levi?

i immediately rushed at him before giving him a tight hug. i don't know, my mind went blank. i don't why he's like this at me. we barely know each other, and it's just days since i've been his assistant but he's already like this at me. i don't know, and i don't care anymore. 

i felt my eyes getting watery and i have no time to control my tears falling of my face. i looked up as he cupped my cheeks before inching his face towards mine then all i can hear is my heart beating while...

...while he's kissing me.

yes, i know, it's not romantic. 

the scene, the time, everything, isn't romantic. but why are we both feeling this way? why is he kissing me? why am i kissing him like this? this is very different since the first one. very. this one is very full of love, the feeling that i wanted to feel for a very long time. 

i closed my eyes as i my tears kept falling down my cheeks. 

is this wrong? once i didn't make it, everything will make Levi's situation harder.

should i break the kiss? will it make everything better? will it give me assurance that i can go back here safe and sound?

should  i stop this? should i lie to my feelings? should i lie at Levi? 

but no, i think i shouldn't. if this is the last kiss, i will enjoy it before everything will be too late. there is no assurance that i can go back with the troop so i will savor every moment, minute and second that is currently passing.

for a whole minute, we shared a passionate kiss but then i let go. i opened my eyes and i saw a pair of silvery eyes staring back at me. i smiled at him before i wiped his tears away. i am proud that Levi is now showing his soft side. 

but i know in the end, i'm going to hurt him. i don't want him to feel the way he felt when Isabel and Farlan died. no, not anymore.

"Y/N...I-I—"

"I know."

I know that you love me, but please don't say it anymore.

i hugged him tighter as i tried to stop my tears again from falling. i will just try my best to come back here safe with Levi and everyone else. i will try my best. i will give my everything. but it's not my fault anymore if i can't make it back. 

it's already my fate.

"Levi..."

he hummed as a response.

"...I will try my best, okay? We two will come back here safe. Complete, no wounds, no pain. I promise that."

i let go from the hug before we put our foreheads together, both staring at each other's orbs.

"And I love you too. No matter what happen."

【 S E V E N T E E N 】