I'm into Insomniacs (discontinued)

What She Did To Him

 My room was bleak. There wasn't much to be said beyond it. I had expected Candy to be livid after catching Pacifica and me together, demanding I explain myself and never see her again. In all honesty, I had been expecting that conversation for a while now.

It was almost impressive how long I had been seeing her behind Candy's back. And, yes. By the way I described the situation, it sounded amazingly scandalous.

Technically speaking, I was cheating. Even though I made it apparent I didn't want to be with Candy, I was cheating. She should have bitten my throat out.

And yet, on the ride home, she was far too silent. Angry, yes. But silent. Oddly enough, that was even worse than her obnoxious screaming. I almost wished she'd scream. At least then I could defend myself in some sort of heated debate. I'd lose, of course. But, still.

The silence was far worse.

No openers. No opportunity to explain myself. To force my feelings out. To point an accusing finger her way and possibly blame her for some of it. If it had been up to me, Candy wouldn't have caught us cheating because we wouldn't have been dating. The break up would have come a lot sooner than it did.

And I had assumed I would be the one to do it.

By the way she stared at me in the limo, scowling and huffing and gritting her teeth once in a while, I could tell the relationship was close to an end. Beyond anything else, her refusal to remind me that I was 'hers' seemed to verify it. This would probably be the last time I would ride in her limo. So, I savored it.

That had been an hour ago, her driver opening my door and leading me out with one wrinkly hand. His eyes had shifted over me with a nervous glint, as though to warn me. He must have been horrified of what Candy could do. But, I didn't care too much. I was far more messed up about Pacifica.

Once I got home, I ignored Mabel's constant badgering to tell her what had happened and simply slipped upstairs into my room. I flopped onto my stomach, groaning into the mattress before flipping over to look at the ceiling.

An hour. One whole hour dedicated to mulling over the entire day and how quickly it had all unfolded. The birds. Confessing to Gideon. Inviting Pacifica over. Being confronted by Candy. Going to the zoo. Completely shitting over Dipcifica, which was never going to happen now.

My hands went to my face, fingers sliding down the lids of either of my eyes as I sighed in frustration.

"I-... Am a complete fucking idiot." There was a mild satisfaction in saying it out loud. At least I knew I was shit, and didn't strut around like I was something special. Like Candy...

For some reason, the thought of her gave me a chill. Unlike the usual, where I was reminded of who she was and what she could and had done to me. But, one of foreboding. A small little shiver that road up my spine and seemed to ring my neck.

There was no way Candy'd let me off the hook that easily. She wasn't so forgiving that she'd just roll over and let me go. There was something more to that attitude of hers today. She was gone, probably thrashing about and screaming at the top of her lungs, wishing I'd get hit by a bus and die. But, then what? What could she possibly be planning after that?

I stopped myself, shooting up out of bed as my eyes snapped shut. I took a deep breath, steadying my mind before letting it out.

" Candy... Can't get to you anymore... You're free, Dipper. Free." I paused, hearing my own voice echo throughout my thoughts. I sounded like a complete liar.

That was around the time I heard a knock at the door.

" Uh, Dipper...?" Her voice seemed sad. Worried. I knew she just wanted to make sure nothing awful had happened while I was at the zoo. And yet, there was an oddness to it. She had already tried to pry it out of me, and failed. Usually, she took that as my one hundred percent refusal to announce it and her cue to go away.