Is our love strong enough?

Can I count on you?

Hi guys. Thank you so much for reading my story🙏. I am sorry it took so long to update this chapter. I was kind of stuck and didn't really know how to continue with the story. I hope you enjoy the following chapter and I will do my best to update soon 😊.

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My head is spinning and spinning with his words. How can he just stand here in front of me and look like this, with tears in his eyes begging me to forgive him? How is he even real?
I can barely contain myself. I look him deep into the eyes and know right away what my next move will be. I can’t stand this tension any longer. It is not just electricity going through my body when he touches me but I feel the tension rising from minute to minute. I can’t keep my façade any longer and slowly close my eyes and approach him. I touch every single detail of this face with my fingers. My thumbs are caressing his mouth slowly and I close my eyes to take this moment in. I have never felt like this before, I don't know what it is. An unfamiliar feeling inside my body rising from minute to minute and it is craving him, to touch me everywhere. I can't keep it any longer and start kissing him as if my life depends on it.

I feel he is taken by surprise from my sudden attack on his lips but he responds with even more desire. I have never kissed him like this before. I didn't recognize myself in this situation but I didn't wanted to think. I wanted to feel. Feel him. His breath, his lips, his tongue, his moans...for me.

I kissed and sucked on his lower lip with so much passion. He parted his lips slowly and begged with his tongue for more. I opened my lips and he inserted his tongue slowly into my mouth. I started to moan at this new sensation and got surprised by my own sounds.

Our tongues danced a choreography of their own inside our mouths and we couldn't get enough of each other. His hands were firm on my waist and he pushed me even closer to him. I felt him. I felt my breast clutching onto his chest with the sudden movement and I felt him growing for me. My hands wandered to his neck and his hair. I missed touching him so much. Feeling him so close to me has been the best experience so far.

We parted slowly to catch our breath and we looked each other deeply into the eyes. They screamed desire, sexual tension and frustration together with deep longing for each other. I didn't know what got into me, I pushed him further back onto the wall and kissed him deeply again. He groaned so loud and this is all I needed to hear to know he liked it just as much as I did. His hands went on a mission to discover my body.

He moved his hands up from my waist and his right hand went under my shirt and his left one was holding my back. He made circular moves as he touched my stomach when suddenly I felt his hand going up to my chest area and his hand brushed over my right breast which made me go crazy. "Hmmm Can..." I said between kisses.

At the sounds of my moan he grabbed me gently with a bit of a rough touch and turned me so that my body is now leaned against the wall. It seemed he had better access from this position as I felt both his hands going under my shirt and each of them grabbing each of my breast gently.

"Oh Sanem...what are you doing to me? You make me want to go crazy here. I have never touched anything more beautiful than you bebek. I am so hard for you. I can barely control myself."

He touched my nipples with his thumbs and massaged them gently. I could barely contain myself longer and squeezed myself even closer to him, so I can feel him better.

I felt a straight loss when he removed his hands from my breast and moved them up my face. He was now holding my face between his hands and said "Sanem, Sanem baby. If we don't stop now I won't be able to control myself any longer. Believe me I want this as much as you. I have been wanting this for such a long time but I thought you were not ready and this here..." he looked and pointed around "is not the right place baby. You deserve so much better than this dusty place. Oh god I can't believe I am saying this right now but this here is really not how I have imagined it. I want everything to be perfect for you. For us. For our first experience together."

He kissed my forehead gently. His touch felt warm and his words sincere. I know it was hard for him to hold back and it took everything inside him to stop himself from going any step further and I appreciated his honesty and thoughts for me.

I put my hands on his chest and decided to be completely honest with him about my feelings.

"Look Can. You cannot believe how happy I currently am that you found me here. Can I have been trying to hide my ever growing desire for you all this time we have been together. But for what? If any of these padt dayd showed me something, than it is that we shouldn't waste time. You never know what happens in life while we are out there dreaming and making other plans. I want to do from now on what I want, what I truly desire and not what is expected from me. From anyone, my neighborhood, my parents or anyone. I want you to feel my heart and I want to feel yours. I appreciate your concern and that you want to be careful with me. Especially since you are my first boyfriend and I don't have any prior experience.."

Can cut me off and asked "are you sure you don't have any prior experience? Because what you just did to me a few minutes back, damn baby. You got me all hot and bothered." He said smiling and I smiled back.

I blushed and felt my cheeks turning red but I wanted to continue.

"Well thank you Can, I am glad you liked it because I still feel very light-headed from all of it. I want to be more confident and more independent. I cannot get that if all of you treat me like I am a child or something fragile that can be broken any second."

Can nodded and opened his mouth slightly to say something but I decided to continue as I wasn't done yet.

"You hurt me like no one ever has Can..."

He removed his hands slightly from my face when he heard these words and I felt his pain. I grabbed his hands firmly and made him look into my eyes.

"As I said Can, you hurt me like no one ever has. At the same time you make me feel like there is no one else for you when we are together. I do believe all you have said a few minutes ago. All I ever wanted was for you to understand why I did what I did and now that you have, we can finally work on our issues. If we want this to work then we need to work on our relationship, together. No more running away, no other woman or getting influenced by anyone anymore. We need to trust each other and we need to live the life you and me want.

I have my flaws as well, I need to work on a few things myself but I really think we can achieve it if we work together. We need to be there for each other and be open about anything. It doesn't matter how bad it is. These past days have shown me that I need to put my life into my own hands. I need to figure out what I really want. And I want to do that together with you."

I started getting a bit nervous and moved from one foot to the other and he noticed it right away.

"Bebek what is it? You can tell me anything. Be honest with me, please."

I took my courage and started "There is one more thing Can. Can I really think we need to go further in our relationship. As I said before, I don't have any experience but I have a longing for you. I want to experience everything with you. And I don't want to wait any longer. I am ready and I know you are as well. I don't know where I got this courage from but this is really not an easy topic for me. I never felt what I felt a few minutes ago. I am excited and afraid at the same time but I know I have you by my side. And I want to experience all of it, with you. I don't want to wait any longer do you understand me? I want to enjoy our relationship and I don't want to stop touching you because I think we are going too fast. I want to do as I feel, do you understand what I want to tell you? It is time for me to grow as a woman, not just career wise but also sexually. And I can't imagine to go further in this adventure with anyone else then you. But you need to promise me that this is not a game for you. I need to count on you.

Can I count on you Can? If I can't, there is no point in us trying in the first place." I said firmly as I waited for his answer.