zion ↴
i keep fucking things up with anissa. its never my intention to but i think its that ive havent gotten used to the fact that im with someone who genuinely likes me for ME. i havent gotten used to being with someone as genuine and honest as her. she believed me when i said that whatever sammi said to her wasnt true, but i hate myself for not doing the same when she told me her and jeff were nothing but friends. i shouldve never let my insecurities come between her and i.
now here i am at the airport about to catch an overseas flight just to knock on her door.
yes. you heard me correctly. i was about to fly my dumbass to paris and apologize the right way.
time skips
all throughout the flight i began writing a song of my own to sing to her expressing to her about how i actually feel, rather than rambling and fucking up for the fourth time!
the song i wrote is called feelings, it basicallytalks about all the crazy shit ive done and the shit that i never meant to say.
time skips
i got lucky this time because when i got here to Paris i had no idea where tf shes staying but i remembered that we had each others locations on.
i took a cab to her hotel and walked up to her room.
i knocked on the door, a few seconds later i hear locks being unlocked from behind the door.
she opens the door and shocked by me being there.
"zion, what- what are you doing here?"
"i wanted to apologize." she steps out of the way for me to come into her room, i drop my bags and turn my attention back to her
"but why did you come all the way over- what why"
"catchin overseas flight just to knock on your door cause you put my planet in orbit. stargirl your body so solar. promise you baby im SORRY, i cant wait til you give in and finally come over, i cant wait to tell you IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY" i sang but of course switching up the words😂
anissa stands there and looks me intensely in the eyes and starts laughing
"thats what you came ALL the way to France to do?"
i look at her and my smile droops down to a frown
"babe that was really cute but we couldve just talked it out IN PERSON, IN LA, AT HOME." she laughs as she steps closer to me, wrapping her arms around my neck
ugh oh my gahhh i missed her hugs and her warmth
i wrap my arms around her waist, slowly making my way down to you know where, while looking down at her glowing, beautiful ass face, my favorite face out of all faces.
"i know but come on!!! its the city of love!! i had to express my LOVE for you in the city OF LOVE. but i didnt come here just to sing you my rendition of phases, i wrote a completely new song just for you on the plane ride here"
"can i hear it?" she smiles as she tilts her head to the side
"how can i say no to you" i smile in awe
"okay well take it away mr. boyband" she sits down on the bed as i roll my eyes
i pull out the beat i made on my phone and my notebook from my bag.
"so what is it called" she questions out of curiosity
"feelings." i set up everything i needed and exhaled loudly
"okay ready?" i ask as i breathe harder and harder getting more and more nervous
she nods excitedly patiently waiting for me to start singing.
(play the song above !!)
"Has anybody told you, that you're perfect
Has anybody told you, that you're worth it
If they haven't baby, I apollogize for them, I apollogize for them
Let me know that you got my flowers
Been sitting alone for hours
Somehow can't get you off my mind
Before you Fell asleep, Imma ring your doorbell
Throw a rock at your window, come down
Just have to say what's on my mind
I was emotional, I was emotional bae
I was emotional, 'motional, 'motional, 'motional, 'motional, 'motional
I did some crazy shit, yeah I'm sorry bae
I've been emotion, 'motional, 'motional, 'motional
'Cause I, can't, keep
Sleeping without you right underneath me
Don't, know, what, it is
I'm checking the time your all in my mind im all in my feelings, yeah
And ohhh, you should know, hope you know that your perfect to me
Don't, know, what it is
I'm checking the time your all in my mind im all in my feelings, yeah
It's probably my fault, that I'm unclear
But you've gotta tell me right now babe, what it's gonna be
'Cause I'm not gonna waste my time, 'cause I give my life for you
I give my life to you, yeah
Let me know that you got my flowers
Been sitting alone for hours
Somehow can't get you off my mind
Before you
Fell asleep, Imma ring your doorbell
Throw a rock at your window, come down
Just have to say what's on my mind
I was emotional, I was emotional bae
I was emotional, 'motional, 'motional, 'motional, 'motional, 'motional
I did some crazy shit, yeah I'm sorry bae
I was emotion, 'motional, 'motional, 'motional, 'motional,
'Cause I, can't, keep
Sleeping without you right underneath me
Don't, know, what, it is
I'm checking the time your all in my mind im all in my feelings, yeah
And ohhh, you should know, hope you know that your perfect to me
Don't, know, what, it is
I'm checking the time your all in my mind im all in my feelings, yeah"
i look and see anissa balling her eyes out with hndreds of tissues surrounding her
"oh my gosh baby why are you crying?" i kneel down on one knee beside her
"because i was childish for not talking shit out with you" she admits
"and i was childish for not believing you after you gave me a chance and believed me after the whole sammi thing. we're even. we can work this out and im not leaving anytime soon. even if we have these rough times every single week."
"stop stupid bitch im an ugly crier" she laughs as she wipes her tears
i laugh along with her and realize that i live for moments like these with her and i wanna keep living for these moments with her.
"im sorry for assuming the worst about you and jumping to so many conclusions without discussing it with you"
"dude just shut up and kiss me bro"
i smile and kiss her trying to stand up from kneeling.
she lays down on the bed while i hover over her.
and yall can guess what happened next...
