SINFUL

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jaemin opened his eyes. still in that place. it had stopped raining. but it didn't look like it rained at all. he's still seated on that bench. but he felt that someone's beside him.

he opened his eyes properly to see who that person was. it was his sister. who was dead.

jaemin yanked and turned pale. it couldn't be yemin. it couldn't be her sister. she's dead for years how can she be with him?

"hey. you're up. anyways, i just came by to say something. don't be scared. i won't take you with me. I won't allow and it's still not your time to go yet." she sweetly said. just like when she's still alive.

jaemin's heart broke into the littlest pieces. he misses his older sister so much. his older sister who always gave advices to her and never made him gloomy.

"i know everything, nana. you want to end your life don't you? i'm not letting you do that. because if you will, we won't see each other again." she explained with the sweetest voice of hers.

jaemin was confused, "won't that be the total opposite? if i die, we'll be together again!" he exclaimed.

"no, nana. i didn't die on purpose. i died because i saved you. i didn't kill myself like you'd do. nana, i've been watching you for years. and i'm happy that you grew up well. but i didn't expect you to be this fragile. you got this from mom. and i don't blame you for being fragile, nor mom. but suicide is not the key, honey. live your life. life does have a lot of obstacles, but those obstacles are for you to jump or dodge. not to stop in front of it. don't let those obstacles take you down. you're stronger than that, nana. i know. you're na jaemin. we both are nana's. be strong, okay? i need to go now. i love you, so so much." she said and started fading away.

"n-no! yemin! NO!" he screamed and tried to hold her but its too late. she's already gone.

jaemin cried once again. but he couldn't. there were no tears. it's weird.

until he woke up. it was a dream. but, when he's with her sister, it never felt like it was a dream.

he's still there. not knowing where. well... that's what he thought.

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