SINFUL

20

"NANA?!" they both screamed.

they couldn't believe their eyes. it's been a long time since they saw jaemin with his eyes open, and happy. he looks happy. he's seated under a tree reading a book. it's his favorite book.

jeno and renjun walked slowly. they felt weak. 7 years has been long for them. it has been painfully long. they just wanted to be with him.

"jaemin? na jaemin?" jeno spoke.

he raised his head and stopped from reading his book. he closed the book and smiled like he have seen them earlier.

"you came." he said.

jaemin's voice sounded like music to their ears which they longed for. which they never heard for years. his smile that they saw everyday was lost. for 7 years. and now that they've seen it again, they don't want to lose it again. they don't want to lose jaemin, again.

he asked them to sit beside him.

renjun was hesitant at first, fearing that it might not be jaemin. after all, it's just a dream. little did they know that this dream is the answer to their prayers.

jeno sat down. he sat in front of jaemin. staring at him, he started crying. he realized how much pain he has been receiving from jaemin not waking up. he missed how jaemin jokes, how jaemin does adorable cringeworthy things, how his deep voice would sound when he wakes up. they both do.

renjun sat down, slowly beside jaemin. he's just sitting down but and he already started crying. it has been 7 years without jaemin. means, 7 anniversaries without jaemin. 7 years without hearing his laughters. 7 years without him feels longer than it already is. it hit them both on their faces. it pained them so bad.

there are times that renjun just starts crying nonstop and would lost his breath. while jeno most of time faints due to so much crying and longing for jaemin. most of the time both of them are getting admitted in the hospital due to over fatigue.

they're going crazy.

"we miss you so much, nana. please come back? we're so sorry. i'm sorry i didn't think about what you'll feel. its all ky fault, i'm sorry." jeno said and held jaemin's hand while crying.

"you've helped me face my fears, nana. you've taught me how to love. you've told me how worthy i am. you've been by my side for a long time. that's why when you met an accident i just couldn't accept it. nothing's sinking in. i couldn't believe anything at all. i just want you to comfort me. like you always do. we needed you for a long time. and we always will. come back, please?" renjun begged and hugged his arms, tears wetting jaemin's clothing.

"shh. it's going to be okay. you'll get over me someday." he said.

it took 5 seconds for renjun to grt what he was trying to say.

"w-what do you mean, nana?" renjun asked. he wanted to make sure what he was talking about.

what was he really talking about?

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