Flares

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Danny's POV 

I hadn't heard from Clover in a few days, it was unusual for her because when i would normally come back from tour she'd spend days at mine just watching movies and listening to music... anyway i was starting to get worried so i picked up one of my not-so-favourite leather jackets and headed for hers, she only lived a few streets down so i decided to walk. As i walked the busy streets of Dublin i bumped into Mark, i hadn't noticed him at first as i was looking down watching my shoes make ripples in the puddles as i took each step, i was easily amused.

"Dan?" He said just before i almost walked into a lamppost.

"Hey Mark, what ye up to" i was kinda 'away with the fairies' so wasn't really paying attention at that point

"Um well walking down the street, obviously! where you off too!"

"Clo's, haven't seen her in a while was just getting a bit worried..." i could have lied, why didn't i?

"i swear you two are secretly married" the thought crossed my mind, i knew how i felt about her but was it actually that obvious, i could feel my face go red and my heart sink, "Danny?" Mark sounded concerned but my head was spinning and i couldn't even answer... i seriously didn't know what was wrong with me. "C'mon mate, have a sit down" he guided me to a small wall by the side of the path and i sat down. i could always rely on Mark to know what to do and he always seemed to know what was going on in my head, it was weird but helpful at times. "So you gunna tell me whats up?"

"i don't really know my self to be honest" i did know, and i had known for a very very long time but for some reason i felt a bit awkward telling Mark, as if he'd take the piss if i did tell him... even though in my heart i was fairly sure he wouldn't.

"i think you do Dan, mate just tell her" 

"uhuh... but its not that simple is it" i was feeling sorry for myself, i just didn't know how to say those words

"how so?" 

"well... i dunno, its just, i dunno"

"exactly, its not fair on either of you if you're gunna keep it to yourself, how long have you known" Mark was also avoiding saying it, i think maybe to make me feel better but it wasn't working, i held my head in hands and thought about what Mark said. It was true, i didn't know how i had kept it to myself for so long yet i still couldn't say it, well it was time to man up and at least tell Mark how i felt, it was like the first step i had to take.

"I'm in love with her Mark... since the first day i met her... and how the fuck do i tell her that" 

"you told me, that's the first step... just tell her" 

"how?" i knew how, i knew i just had to say it but to be honest i was scared. Mark sat down next to me on the wall and put his arm around me... he always made himself out to be the bad-ass guitarist but he could be quite sensitive when he needed to be, i was glad to have him there as my best friend.

"are you scared of what she'll say?" 

"i dunno, i just don't want to loose her as a friend either"

"i understand mate, but she could feel the same and if someone doesn't step up and say something then you're just both gunna be living in hell for the rest of your lives"

"but if she doesn't feel the same she wont even wanna be friends anymore" i was starting to sound like a school kid again so i lifted up my head and pulled my jacket onto my shoulders, as if that was enough to convince myself i was better than that

"if she's the good friend i think she is she will understand, she can help you move on" 

"yeh, i can do it, i can tell her" i stood up and looked down the street so i could see her place, Mark had made me realise that it was important so i started walking proudly down the street"

"good luck Dan!" Mark shouted, i don't know what i would have done without him. I arrived at her door and i was still feeling confident and ready to tell her so i didn't hesitate pressing the door bell, i heard her footsteps move towards the door and i smiled to my self.

"Hey Dan" She smiled and then the nerves started to rise in the pit of my stomach and i froze, i couldn't do it, i felt like shit and i started thinking about getting rejected, how this would effect her. "Danny?? come in ill make you a cuppa" she sounded concerned but i felt like such a coward, i didn't want to go inside. i couldn't face it.

"I'm alright thanks Clo, i just came for my jacket" even saying her name broke my heart and i could feel the nerves coming out in my voice. She stared at me blankly for a second, her perfect face looked scarred with emotion, i thought maybe it was me that upset her. 

"yeah... sure, hang on a sec" she passed me my jacket and gave me a tiny sweet smile, it took me back to when we were at school, it was her first day and she was sat on her own eating her lunch outside... she looked up and smiled at me, that was the moment i fell in love with her. "are you sure youre alright Dan?" 

"yeh I'm fine, just off out with the lads and this jacket couldn't go unworn" i laughed at mysefl, what was i saying? but i was angry at myself at the same time so i knew exactly where i was heading and there was only one thing that could fix that.

A/N hmmm, i wander where Danny is going?? think we have a bit of nothing coming up!! so, will he ever tell Clover... and even more important does she feel the same? anyway, thanks for reading! i think ill probably update again tonight... getting in to it! comment what ye think!