Alone. (Michael Sutthakorn)

Chapter Thrity-Two

After a long talk with Dan about how I am going to make Michael realise that all he is doing is hurting and effecting people around him, it's upsetting for others, and that he needs to forget about how much he is hurting and needs to remember how much other people care... I finally got home. Checking my Facebook, i scroll down the pointless newsfeed.

Stupid Vine Video.

Singing Video.

'Michael Sutthakorn is now in a relationship.'

That was something that caught my eye, I gulped clicking on it to see who it was. It was a girl who had brown hair and hazel eyes. I clicked on her profile to examine her further, I didn't recognise her.

Is it okay to be hurt by this?

I know that I finished with him and I defiantly thought it was for the best, obviously I wasn't still quite over him yet.

She was pretty, she was much more girly than me and was a lot better to look at then simple old me... I was boring to be honest. Brown hair, blue eyes, small, slim. Not much about me, that is.... Different.

Trying to forget about it I decide to hop in the shower, I turned the shower on. I strip off and hop in the boiling hot shower.

I let the hot water run down my back and I stare at the wall in front of me, I'm trying to get it off my mind. I can't go to his now and ask him to stop doing whatever it is that he is doing. He's got a girlfriend now, he doesn't need me... He's moved on.

Maybe, just maybe this girl was going to be so much better for him then I could ever be. I wasn't exactly the best girlfiend, I got took back to my Dad's house, I hardly messaged him to let him know I was okay.

I hate to sound self-centred but everything is pilling up on me. I can't take it much longer.

Having to pretend you don't care is the hardest thing, because in all honesty. I'm heartbroken. Pathetic? Yes, i know because i broke up with him but to be honest i had the most perfect boyfriend then i lost him over one thing.

I agreed to meet Dan tomorrow as I don't have work for the whole week now, I'm so close to having the money for the flat, it's cool that I'll being moving in on my own because where I'll be living will be in the same block as Dan.

I wrap the towel around my body once I jumped out of the shower, showers make me so much more calm. I feel like I think more deeply when I'm alone, when there is nothing around to distract me from my deep thinking.

Thinking isn't my strong point, I either over think or don't think at all.

I'm sitting here trying to forget about it, but I can't.

I'm now laying in bed thinking, I'm trying to drop of too sleep but my eyes won't let me.

I think too much.

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I wake up after a restless sleep.

I walk to my dressing table, and look at my face I look awful. Dark brown circles cover my eyes, my lips are horrible and are chewed.

A knocking sound came from my door, I looked over and didn't bother to say anything to the person who was at the door.
I sit down at my dressing table and begin doing my make up, I used my fingers to smudge the foundation across my face too make my face appear a bit brighter, I always looked dull and lifeless.
Once I was finished doing my make up, I decided to through on some jeans as well as a tartan shirt. I was going to meet Dan today.

After getting ready and spraying way too much, I finally go downstairs and put my shoes on.

Dan told me too meet him at his and we can talk about Michael. Whenever I think about Michael I wonder if he is treating his girlfriend good, all I want is for him to treat his girlfriend right. I know that he left me and moved on so soon, but I just want the other girl to be treated with respect.

I exit the house and make my way to the bus stop not far from my house, that is the bad thing about living far away from anything, I have to travel by bus.

When the bus comes I walk to the back of the bus and sit there waiting for my turn to get off.
I have like four more stops until I get nearest to Dan's house, I stopped for the second time and two people stepped onto the bus and I instantly felt embarrassed.

Michael and his girlfriend got on, just too my luck he smirked at me and sat right in front of me. He was clearly doing it to intimidate me.

My stop finally came. I had too get up and walk past them. I look down without realising I was doing it, he looked at me and smirked "Well, haven't seen your face in a long time. I guess that's not a bad thing." Michael laughed, I started to shake. I hurried off the bus tripping once and hearing him laugh hysterically. I couldn't take it, I had to run. Running off the bus, I felt the warm tears run down my cheeks.

I ran all the way too Dan's house, I banged on his door. His mum opened in, she smiled and movies that I was crying. She invited me in and put her arm around me.

"So, Jay, do you want to tell me anything?" Sharon said getting seated. She passed me the drink she had just made for me, I smiled and took a sip of the juice. I wasn't much of a tea drinker, at all I always drank juice. Fun fact for all off you.

"Michael, he has just gone off the rails." I replied shaking my head. "I just don't understand why this has happened, all because we broke up. I expected him too be upset but not like this."

"I heard what he done to Dan, I can't believe he done that." She carried on with the convocation, I nodded in agreement I wouldn't of expected him to of done that.

"Dan didn't deserve any of this." I muttered shaking my head. I hope she didn't hear, I think it's embarrassing when people hear what I say and what I am thinking in my head.

"What did you say?" She asked. Crap, she heard. You're probably thinking why are you so embarrassed about what you said? But I'm embarrassed because it's what I am thinking.

"I said, Dan deserved none of this." I said and I decided to elaborate on what I said. "If anyone deserves the crap that Michael gave him it should be me, I know that Dan hasn't been having it easy lately with Ellie an all, I deserve this!" I said getting louder with every word I spoke, I felt someone's hand on my back. The hand was warm and comforting.

Sharon nodded at the person behind me and walked off, I turned my head to face the mysterious hand which was placed on my back. Dan.

"You don't deserve this anymore, any less then I do." Dan said with his hand on my back, I pulled it off and we entwined our fingers together. We looked at each other for a split second and turned away.

"I do, Dan. Trust me I do." I retorted. I did deserve this, I probably put Michael through sheer hell. Does that sound vein? I'm trying to convince myself that I haven't done anything wrong to Michael, I don't think I have but I guess he'll feel different.

I've never thought about how Michael feels in this situation. Dan never told me if he done anything to Michael to provoke him. Hang on! Why am I standing up for the low life, if he has got over me that quickly I could at least try right?

I don't want to be with the low life, dick, scum, twat....

I want too be with him, but maybe I could just make him a little bit jealous and have him on his knees begging for me back.

( A/N; I've decided that I want to ask you guys a question, every update and it'll contribute to the story:
Question:
Should I make Jamie make Mike jealous or make them get back together quicker?

Thank-you for the votes, and reads. I'm not the best updater but I do try!
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