Alone. (Michael Sutthakorn)

Chapter Thirty-Six. // The letter that Michael had to read.

Dear Michael,

When I first met you we hated it each other it's funny because I grew to like you, then I grew to love you. It's funny how people change, I changed a lot because of you.

Changing was the best thing for me, I mean of course you influenced my change but I had to do it for myself. When we first met I never had a boyfriend I had never kissed anyone, you have been a big part of my life and to put it blunty you were my first heart break. 

You broke my heart. However, this letter isn't to tell you how much you broke my heart or how much I wished you never done that because this letter is wrote to you as a offical goodbye.

I'm moving, not too far but far enough to forget about this place. To forget about Charlie, to forget about how my mum left me without warning, to forget that I got took back to my Dad's and most importantly to forget about you. 

Mike, I loved you. Not only did I love you. You meant everything to me, you honestly were a big part of my life. I'm still in love with you and I shouldn't be but I am. At the moment I am settled. I'm happy. No, I'm not happy I'm upset, I'm lonely.

Without you I have nothing, I have no one. Of course I have the small ammount of friends that you introduced me too but thats about it and they're all probably on your side other than one person that I think you owe a massive apology too. Dan. That isn't my place to say it but what you did was wrong, Mikey.

I miss calling you Mikey, saying "Mikey, I love you." Them words used to come out of my mouth almost every day Michael. Everything blew up because of one drunken night. I bet you haven't been drunk since, huh? 

You have never been one to come across as the cheating type. Drunk or not you still done it. It hurt me, that is the worst I've ever been hurt and to see the person I first love do it hurts me twice as much.

I''ve decided to keep writing you letter, hopefully you could join in and send them back obviously when I move in you'll receieve my address. 

You're probably thinking 'why does she have to move?' 

I just do, I have to get out of here. 

I'm currently crying. Mikey I've never needed someone as much as I need you. I haven't even wanted my mother or father as much as I want you! Wanting you is the only thing that goes through my head on a day to day basis.

I never thought in a million years I would of fell for you.

This is real love.

I love you with all my heart and I probably always will. You know I thought I was over you after what you said and done to me on the bus but I'm not. You keep hurting me but that doesn't even bother me.

I love you always.

Your Jay.